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along the lines of Lord dunsany, tolkien, game of thrones dude.

if you're into it, I found one John darnielle recommended that pre dated them all, the worms of ouroboros  (I posted this months ago).

I can use some escapism and been reading a little too much of crowleys sex magik books and losing my mind a little more and more each day as a result

https://broadly.vice.com/en_us/article/special-ed-teacher-forced-students-to-masturbate-in-class-lawsuit-says?utm_source=vicefbus

Have 2 months to move. Tired of NY. Heard the punk scenes great and cheap rent. Also, I'm a philly cheese steak connoisseur

The elevator scene is crazy. Literally frame for frame..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irrbuaiUMVw

tough one for me

i dunno. this probably isn't thread material but I suppose I can make it an all around relationship (what's healthy, what's not, codependency, etc) type thread.

So i just started talking to this girl on tinder a few weeks ago. and we started hanging out for a week, even though it feels like months because we've been living together for that whole time. and i had to be outta my place by april 1st and she's like "Oh it's fine! just move in with me!" and it's like a whirlwind, that honeymoon phase where it's nothing but sex all day and acting stupid and annoying and touchy around friends.

I'm still not over my ex. I don't believe I ever will be. I don't know if Dead Moon was right when they crooned "love comes once and then it goes" but i just know it feels nice to be liked and to like someone. i feel giddy and like a little kid and get butterflies in my belly. Because when i'm with them, i'm with them. I think cheating is the most fucked up thing you can do, it just wastes peoples time. Especially when you're not married and there's no kids involved, and if you are feeling the desire to be with someone else then obviously there's a problem.

I know it probably sounds like i'm taking advantage (I was a day away from being homeless again) but i genuinely like her and she likes me. we're probably setting ourselves up to crash and burn because we're both obviously needy and codependent and big babies and sex addicts and everything addicts (food for her. you already know my deal. i don't need to rehash) but i believe everything happens for a reason. I've been drawing very similiar tarot threads saying something to the extent of reaching some new plateau in life and there's going to be new beginnings and adventures and i equated it to just being single before I met her but.. god, i dunno.

why can't i just be a healthy, ordinary human being. is that a a real thing? are there actually healthy people that don't make spontaneous decisions? I have no job, she works at walmart, i had some movie saved up which i'm pissing through in the most absurd and decadent ways now that i found out i don't have to pay rent...

http://remoteoutposts.blogspot.com/2016/03/hex-demo-tape-2007.html?m=1

 https://m.soundcloud.com/ryan-uellendahl/sets

i suppose this is a thread of a man child complaining about life as an adult but i'm really scared.

for the first time i'm truly on my own..(family, significant other, close friends) . have to leave me place by the 1st (that's what i'm hoping. landlord isn't answering my calls which is a bad sign. for all i know i could come back to a 5 day notice anyday. it's for non rental payment. $1375 a month caught up and i owe him $2000).. have no idea where to go, credit is a joke, don't have pay stubs, stuck with the methadone ball and chain so can't really leave NY which was my real dream if i could, my girlfriend is barely even an acquaintance. part of me wants to fight for her, to fight for us, but the other half says that's just going to come across creepy. when it's done, it's done. if it's meant to be, well, you know the saying... when i had her, anything would be an adventure. Even the streets. I don't know what i'm going to do with my bunny rabbit, all my things (at the end of the day i'm very materialistic. it's not a great quality but i've amassed any amazing collection of books, comics, music, dvds, etc.

i'm scared. it's amazing how you don't realize what you have until it's being dangled in your face and yanked away when you reach back for it. I guess i'm going to have to go back to a sober house, save up money, but i'm afraid of being in that environment. must of those are a code word for a fucking crack house.

The blues brothers soundtrack ha. Wish it was a bit cooler. First show was kiss so that negates some

if i had to guess i'd say it's gonna wind up being Hillary.

still troubled by the schism of trump. there's a schism and splits between the GOP party, i've never met, or met someone who's met an actual trump fan but somehow he keeps coming out on top?

http://www.factmag.com/2016/02/29/kira-roessler-black-flag-oscar-sound-editing-2016/

Finished a "new religious text" for a good sczhiophrenic friend of mine when he was off his meds and had me dictate word for word. His god, "the great architect" reportedly gave him a message that had to be shared with the people. I wrote it down seven years ago in rehab. I finished editing it. He deserved that. He was sick yet brilliant, and whether it was some alien god or a schizophrenic vision it has profundity. His equivilent to the bible for his religion, euphorixa..is called last whimper of euphorica.

it didn't help that he did nothing but scream the lyrics to his song "dragula" while being taken down. "dig through the ditches and burn through the witches — I slam in the back of my dragula!""

http://heaviermetal.net/security-detail-tackles-homeless-man-on-oscars-red-carpet-turns-out-to-be-rob-zombie

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQVC2zCC5qA

Street sharks was a close second.

Other top contenders..

• Attack of the Killer Tomatoes
• Bucky O'hare
• Inspector Gadget
• Creepy Crawlers

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this one..




anyone read it?/know anything about it/..

This is what's its about, well, the table of contents at least.

Table Of Contents
Introduction ................................................................... 1
Foreword .................................................................... 5
Chapter 1 Silent Weapons for Quiet Wars ..................................... 35
Chapter 2 Secret Societies and the New World Order ................. 67
Chapter 3 Oath of Initiation of an Unidentified Secret Order ... 99
Chapter 4 Secret Treaty of Verona .................................................103
Chapter 5 Good-by USA, Hello New World Order .......................109
Chapter 6 H.R. 4079 and FEMA
Federal Emergency Management Agency.....................121
Chapter 7 Anti-Drug Abuse Act of 1988
H.R.5210, P.L. 100-690................................................. 151
Chapter 8 Are the Sheep Ready to Shear? ..................................159
Chapter 9 Anatomy of an Alliance .............................................163
Chapter 10 Lessons from Lithuania .............................................179
Chapter 11 Coup de Grace ...........................................................183
Chapter 12 The Secret Government ............................................. 195
Chapter 13 Treason in High Places ................................................. 239
Chapter 14 A Proposed Constitutional Model
for the Newstates of America .......................................251
Chapter 15 Protocols of the Elders of Zion ................................... 267
Chapter 16 The Story of Jonathan May ........................................ 331
Chapter 17 Documentation: U.S. Army Intelligence
Connection with Satanic Church.................................. 361
Appendix A William Cooper's Military Service Record .................. 381
Appendix B UFOs and Area 51 ...................................................... 397
Appendix C Alien Implants .......................................................... 442
Appendix D AIDS ............................................................................. 445
Appendix E New World Order ..................................................... 448
Appendix F U.S. Government Drug Involvement............................. 473
Appendix G Kurzweil vs. Hopkins ................................................ 490


Here's the whole book if you want it..
http://www.hourofthetime.com/wordpresstest/wp-content/uploads/2010/09/William_Cooper-Behold_a_Pale_Horse1991A.pdf

Peter Stubb (acoustic. released hundreds of tapes. genres vary from death metal, black metal, alt country, pop punk, pop, all acoustic)
Jackson C Frank
Jamie Ewing (Bossy, Bent Outta Shape, Radio Faces, The Lazer, Tender Wizards, many more that weren't recorded and unfourntately he passed before he could make more masterpieces. The last was with the band The Young Men. Neil
Daniel Johnston
Mikey Erg
Lennon/McCartney, George Harrison
Ashley (Dunno last name. but I know he was many favorite bands of mine.. Giant Bags of Weed, Sexy, Future Virgins)
Neil Young
Matty Luv (Hickey)

some are pretty interesting (first recording of the eunuch choirs it was done to preserve the "angelic voices".) the lost footage of a female cosmonaut in space that predates americas attempts.  others are just twisted.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Tf-IQo3ftc

it took me several times of listening to his songs, on various occasions, over the span of like, i dunno a decade. and then one day it clicked. he's just a man, a sick man, a sad man, a hopeless man, who makes beautiful songs and lives to make music. He's the real thing.. unstable but real. Selfish to say but he couldn't have created such gorgeous art without whatever internal turmoils and conflicts in his mind so things happen for reasons. a martyr, living a life of agony so others in pain don't have to feel so alone. this is a best of list i compiled, or at least in my humble opinion. It's spans the career.

You'll either love him or hate him i suppose. but if you chose to listen, listen once, and then listen to it again later or the next day. repeat. you'll see the genuis. it's just buried under a peculiar and distinctive voice, strange instruments (i thought i heard a fucking glockenspiel. it's been about 20 years since i've heard one of those babies).. if you're a fan there's nothing else i need to tell you, if you're not, well, maybe check him out. he's got an interesting life story and beautiful art came from it. 


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bmRjGBFg1a0
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ma7lyfYzIw8
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MG1RvEC4HyA&list=RDMG1RvEC4HyA
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0iY69rgdleg&list=PLIzF8NGFnfd1dbxGbax9wZNS0fpputtRy
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bmRjGBFg1a0
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tough call for me.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dpFZ0ZbvMjQ

kicks off at 2:38

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h9GoJQd4o30

This is not a joke. I hate they feel they.need to, or in many cases, MUST do it, and I keep cranking the.machine.

I always feel guilty and ashamed after. Im sweet to them, try to talk.. Im lonely. I paid to just lay in ones lap and have her rub my head and scratch my stalp(my fav non.sexual)..

Im sure many find this.horrible here. Im sorry for that. If it simulates ptsd im beyond sorry, but its the truth.

And I want help. Im so alone, I need to learn to be okay by myself

"Extreme sports", mainly skateboarding was my segway from innocent little cherub to finding about underground culture and passions of my own, etc. However, I respected it all and remember Dave Mirra, (also remember playing Dave Mirra pro bmxer for ps2).

suicide is a sad, sad thing. Especially when children, spouse, family, etc are left in the smoldering wreckage

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9EEZAivzl1Q

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MhbCzTqFsQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8HGb7yo4SFM

I'm trying to make some extra cash because i'm in a bind, and that's not what writings about for me but i stumbled across a poetry thing and they pay so i figure i'll submit these. If they're the equivilent of uploading a turd to the computer and uploading it and seeing it, feel free to let me know. I'm also submitting a very short story to somewhere too..

feel free to read if you want and/or hijack it and turn it into a post your art.writing.photos


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HELL – County Jail, Sentencing.

I'm you're voice piece for Everything, Nothing and the shadow-less void between, Court Section Schrilleex Ascending, Docket #199288 AP253(infinity sign) . You broke a commandment in the precinct of the 4th dimensional metaphysical Sector @@$@25. This, I'm sorry to have to say after the ordeal you've already underwent, is a very serious offense and the penalty is, well let me explain the dimension you've penetrated.
It is understood at this point that we know nothing whatsoever. The dawn of information died mutilated and forsaken, we were in the  age of anti-reality.  This is known. Children comprehend this before anything else of sustenance. We've evolved, assisted yes, yet evolved.. not developed use of the other locations of the brain previously thought necessary, but by understanding through meditation and our answers we weren't aware we were questioning were revealed in a blinding white light. We don't trust what we see. That ignorant notion that was the basis of sanity, life, love, and, well just about everything to you was it? What was dangled like grapes before your eyes? Or more probably, data with circuits and wires dangling across a robotic cranium or square with algorithms flowing and flowing. If we did the world would be flat, Earth would be the center of the universe in which all heavenly bodies bowed in gravitational tango. "Why look into the carcass of the cadaver and use its organs for revelations? Why the hedonistic fury?"  Question everything. And question yourself for questioning. Why? What purpose? What revelation? At who's cost and what means?
You don't understand but I have to explain to you. Pick a random memory. One that's beautiful. Makes you all misty eyed, keeps you up at night, hits you in the bathroom stall when you're taking a fucking shit and the eyes are off you and you can drop the goddamn charade. A memory like that. A feeling. A chance that you can be with a person. Lets start there. It's fucking bullshit. It's fake. Bunk. Never was. Never will be. Isn't now. Think of the amoeba. It's alive. Just like us with the obvious relativity of size factored in. They live a life. They might have gods. Morals, deviance, blasphemy, counter-culture. Wars with other amoebas over difference in shades, cosmic complexion, shimmers of translucence or such causing racial riots worldwide (there world is the size of our pupil perhaps). And also is our body, along with billions of other bacteria who live a life if ignorance to certain (no) truths but they do their equivalent of fucking and living and waging war, with the same primal fury as the squid and the whale, the homo sapiens versus the homo sapiens. Below them, atoms, debate the meaning of a life, (Homo-Sapien Scientists, with their arrogance and such, at least they recognized the Atom was "small". The smallest known particle in the universe- they declared. If they only knew that within it, gods wage wars so epic and cataclysmic even the Original Architect shudders and looks away, disgusted and at awe at the furious intensity of their grandsons. Oh right, you still don't even know that humans created Gods. Not in the sense that we invented them like fairy tales. We are so powerful that our thoughts and beliefs come true in alternate universes and due to their diverse and conflicting nature don't always coexist in harmony. A schizophrenics smiling stick figure Jesus gets disemboweled by the Minotaur. Satan rides upon the back of Cthulhu to slit the fucking throat of that cocksucker Neptune who keeps Aphrodite kidnapped and rapes. )
Anyhow, I believe parts of your brain are beginning to crack, in fact I know this but unfortunately I have strands of your DNA still and make the slight mistakes of humanity, little lies mistaken for formality. You have a slight pressure crack. Fragments and lines spread outward in a chaotic triangular pattern, scattered in all chaotic realms of inanimate fear and almost like a slowly pulsating coma heart, they bend and stretch and quiver, slow, like trying to watch a plant grow, yet it will inevitable break. Completely shatter. Obviously not immediately, but the damage has been done, the "detonator planted and the clock set" so to speak if you want to reduce to cliches of your tiresome culture.
Why you? Why you? Why you. Is that really the question you should be asking while I'm gracing you with a series of responses? I could have left your terrified ego drifting through these windless dimensional plane, yet I have a job and do my job well. "Act like a gentleman, (again. It's hard to recover the whole burden left by the father. Tiresome, trite cliches), I shall treat you as such." No formalities need be issued, such as conversation and/or acknowledgement of your ego snug in its sickening meat puppet. (You're very lucky I pulled some strings and let you wear your body. We need your mind as close to functioning as possible and that would have left it barely usable enough to pawn) So try to grab something tight with your mind, even though nothing you know is true, grab all the bullshit you want while you still can I suppose then turn off your light. Close your eyes. Take some concentrated breaths, and this is the important fucking part, only focus on the inhalation and the subsequent exhale. The fluidity, repetition, perfect circle, with an impenetrable fortress surrounding it and absolute NOTHING within.  You know nothing and nothing is the most secret, special, beautiful, key of the universe and the only way to achieve what you labeled "happiness" and fought such heroic and tragic internal battles to find.
I'll leave you. Yes, I should explain further, that was the sentence by the Dimensional Metaphysical Sectors Grand Reaper for your crime, of trespassing upon a plane where you had no jurisdiction, how you found out, through your studies of the Necromantik Bible and due to your ignorance you were equated with the blissful end of that old one, and were given a relatively light sentence. You must remain here, forevermore, until you can silence your mind so complete. Like the monk who lit himself on fire to protest the Vietnam war and a hair barely rose on his balls. A form of escape to a realm where there is no escape, there is no nothing, just..
You don't have to worry about time. I hope you at least gathered by this point there's no time or things will be substantially more difficult for you. You will need to forget that which I see burning in your retinas as we speak, and I see it conjured as you blushed and shifted your eyes from mine just now in shame. Don't mistake my words for kindness and understanding. No such things exists. It's imperative that you understand, and like you're kind have been doing for so long, a lie here and a lie there is "necessary", right?
So go, try to forget the screams of the victims you bound and defiled. The teeth you removed and wore. The jars stuffed with organs and muscles. The faces with eyes gouged and mouth gaped a jaw. The two brothers, who you gave a knife and said they had a choice or it was their mother. Little did they know the knife was used to kill her just beforehand, well,  in the time it takes to masturbate after. Well,  I forgot to tell you, you'll need their permission to get their screams to silence, and I don't know if they'll be so sympathetic. Will you? Come on out guys, there's someone I'm sure you'd like to meet...
   
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In our sisters charity, pet,
as a result of "light this thing", laughing
at the same time
his sleep looked a day behind me.
I can sleep now.
He had been hydrocephalic.
The waiting room around five.
"yes."
"lets go to sleep, it's been long gray hours
General anesthesia lasted to protest.
"the kid is fine, no retardation.. cigars?"
"no."
And if the still loved, anesthesia,
death during ugliness and comparing
mild cataclysmic madness.
Hardiff had come into institutionalized
Puke grinning.
God was saved.
Varying results, death under general..
"I feel you're right", she said
"what a weird question."
Spend a night.
Complete disaster maps.
Sesame street nonstop.
Have wanted him in and agreed.
Spend a night and see your local doctor.
Could you have worked ones mouth, underwent..
Stuck into thought now. A really good place
Would you have wanted it recorded?
Retardation as a result.
Oh there. Wore all
Sorts of thinking
punished have gone there.
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I smiled,
The golden
open throat, soft tie,
Your eyes bold blue
God like head
Then seeing your..
But now (not strange)
Sought i
I think and think of you.
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Evil.


A little girl

Pretty as pie

sits in the dirt

behind the shed.



A fly

Scared and buzzing

To and fro, fro and hither

At the mercy of a cherub



She pulls off one wing,

"he loves me",  she

Pulls of the next

If it could scream it would



So loud, it would.

"He loves me not."

pouts. and if it

could     (t) only cry

                (h)

                (e)

                (/)

                (f

                (l)

                (y)



Off comes a leg

"he loves me"

Alien base heads

turn earth into a trap house



while she sits,

ripping limbs,

vicious as Attila the Hun

sweet as apple pie n head



"he loves me...NOT?"

"fuck!" a flock of filthy pigeons take flight,

`the streets of suburbia, dark empty

Two wild dogs sink teeth

Into the throat of their sick mother and rip her (to shreds)

Playing tug of war with the umbilical cord of a sister



They never met.

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(humans.

Ing. as a maid for some.
to cross over to the uninformers
it was soon neglected.
a few days later, all down in the valley
but on the other side of the casas
negras highway, the body of another girl
was found, this one
was four foot three. She, a metal buckle,
as if it had been times in the chest.
The ambulance men.
The stretcher.
Eating scorpions.
"thing" thought Jua
"two bodies in the first body."
Down, but dump it right.
Same with the secfond. All the
Risks that less, he said to him.
Along the road they would be fed.
And in a way they did die much..
Girl was found. A valley without a name.
Dead girl or woman. Mere bodies.
Brown hair, ligther dyed. Innocent, climbed down
Into because.

https://youtu.be/0Rkwuxq6vpk

so heavy. listening to nothing left inside is like getting into a physical altercation with rollins and being pummeled into submission (i know that's not everyones idea of "unwinding" or "relaxing and listening to some sweet tunage"

i like it all actually. i just happen to be listening to this ha. i'd probably have posted any. Proud to have my bars tatted.

yeah i know some people don't like the smiths here. some do. the ones who don't i and the others probably know so just saying 'the smiths sucks" is something you can do, because well anyone can do anything, but, maybe just dig it if you do and don't if you don't?

it's pretty cool. kinda just like listening to the smiths but, not. I prefer original versions of covers but i'm with it nonetheless.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJ0DQDwYFnw

00:25 There Is A Light That Never Goes Out
05:05 Still Ill
09:20 Jeane
12:17 I Want The One I Can't Have
14:10 (awesome Morrissey shirt toss)
15:12 This Charming Man

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LH8gUhDd6WE

Never thought i'd be listening (voluntarily. My dad was a dead head. that's the reason, he subliminally planted something in me on our long road trips upstate to hike) to the "dead".. but this song is pretty awesome.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1uby6jFCDjE
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can't tell myself the lyrics and song isn't a tad pretty and super catchy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rL06c_mCG0I&list=PLD9B15315E20DA0BA&index=3

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Ween- Mutilated Lips/Waving my dick in the wind

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=msoCY6o9v24
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_F39uC9IlI0

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I always thought listening to the shaggs was an exercise in masochism and was something just to be done to say you did it, and have the album but this song is really cool..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=11_nsW151tg

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this is a tough one to list as a "shitty band" because the good stuff is so good it should negate the shit, but i'll throw it in anyway because if you haven't heard this side of the GOO GOO DOLLS, check it.. the best parts of the descedents, replacements, old lemonheads

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z0qFjTvau5E

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The good rats were a long island bar band that opened for huge bands, KISS, black sabbath, tons but never made it. They still play just as hard, have always worked jobs and tour and record on the reg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VSWUX-uQtuc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qSWx6fM-Ol8
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Its more pop punk than the beaten to death hot water music, jawbreaker, any fest band with one fat guy with a super beard. I'm loving it


http://www.fortheloveofpunk.com/premiere-medictation-streams-gods-glory-discusses-warm-places/

Views? I mean, the skin bleaching or whatever it was aside, did they really think there'd be no back cry?

I know hes occult 101 but I'm curious what people think about the man/methods/written legacy and ideas. Just finished some numerology text of his and one focusing on buddhism and meditation.

Yeah its good, got its moments but not even high on my list of cohen bro movies. A simple man slaugthers it.

http://wtkr.com/2016/01/13/virginia-beach-man-to-be-sentenced-for-burning-dog-alive/

heh, i thought this was funny. it was a meme about the ridiculous shit their turning out these days in the movie industry, not to say that wasn't what the industry was founded on. i just wanted to post this actually, i should cut the justification. it's funny.

[If you don't want to hear my music CHECK IT OUT ANYWAY TO SEE SOMETHING SWEET NATE DREW]

I'm pretty happy with it. Sorry for the self indulgence but if YOU guys made more threads i wouldn't need to. anyhow, i hope someone enjoys.. If you don't want to hear my music CHECK IT OUT ANYWAY TO SEE SOMETHING SWEET NATE DREW

here's the description:Inspired by anachronistic visions of a world I take peoples word on, one where people wore roller skates to bring you your burger n' shake, rock n roll was more dangerous than a hydrogen bomb and life was about living fast and leaving a good looking corpse.

https://soundcloud.com/ryan-uellendahl/sets

-I recorded a song I'm really happy with and would like to do something with it.

https://www.facebook.com/ryan.uellendahl.1/videos/10101987093919812/

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I've been looking for an album I lost for a long fucking time. It's a by these dudes Von LMO,, ill space epic protopunk garage, alien rock opera of awesomeness.. hawkwind playing stooges or stooges playing hawkwind.. one of the two.. that should be enough..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRVqxb3ihjU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bAao9Z8znfQ 

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I seem to be responding to the additional of the abilify to my pharmaceutical cocktail. As hestistant as I was about certain aspects of creativity, it's actually been quite the contrary. With my mind off my selfish misery, suicide, anger and such i have so much more time to actually DO something and not go back and forth in my head how i'm a failure because i don't do anything but it's because i sit and say that, that paradoxical, endless perpetual whatever it's called. either way i believe i've seen past that and have been coming up with more ideas for things than ever.

I actually went out to a buy a binder, i haven't done that since high school or possibly college? either way because i have more focused clarity, more work to put together and i want to organize it. I've literally came up with a pretty cool (i think) fantasy story. I've always been interested in the creation of mythology (Tolkien, Lord Dunsany, and all the others influenced by them) and wanted to take my own attempt at it and I've already made detailed tolkein-esque maps with quaries and mountains, rivers. streams, desecrated cities, forests and catacombs and such. If I get into the actual jist of the story here I'll sound a little crazy but it's pretty fucking awesomely crazy ha.

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nate designed an amazing fucking piece I commisioned him which i'm going to get inked as soon as i get the money for the inkage. it's a sheer work of art so i'm taking my time. It's vintage Elvis with Kiss Make up and the Elvis written on bottom in KISS logo. TALK TO HIM AND GET HIM TO DO SOMETHING FOR YOU, you won't regret it.

I was wondering if anyone is diagnosed (it's obviously a personal matter so feel free to maintain anonymity if you desire) with bi-polar. It makes sense why in the past anti-depressants hadn't worked on me but I'm not sure if it's the right diagnosis. It's hard because there's no scientific proof, in the sense of something you can see with your eyes, a part of the brain that's afflicted, etc. They just have to go by what I say, and it's not easy to describe your worst aspects...

anyhow, I just feel this because I don't really have the maniac phases. I have maniac moments throughout a day of mostly depression.. does that count? I'm afraid because I'm on a regiment of drugs that have side effects

anyone have luck with abilify? the wellbutrin alone isn't cutting it.

"This is punk about enjoying yourself and fuck everyone else. These bands had no delusions or even hopes of grandeur. Like the aliens who built Stonehenge."- David Cross

(outsider art/music,degeneracy, libertines.. the lot of us) 

http://neuroticapress.blogspot.com/

Ive read vague reviews that weren't positive but I dont think anyone has the cajones to criticize (wrong word. Certain aspects have.. Misogyny is the.most.recent) it just yet, sometimes his, well a lot of art, needs to be chewed and mulled over a bit. When its regarded as an indisputable classic in good time they dont wanna be the dick.

Im gonna see it. I will love it.

silent night and christmas card from hooker https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=STXF9PZkjSQ


and of course pogues fairy tale of ny

c'mon.. look!



or she was a cool beatnik



now she's.. her.

hard to get into the holiday vibe with excessive lower back sweat

Im starting an epic fantasy/sci fi lovecraftian horror anti novel that I believe will take my entire life to finish. It starts with the discovery that humans are a product of an alien race mating with pre.neanderthal. Also gods exists within atoms, wage cosmic shaking battles in black holes and these gods have a creator, the original architect. Thats all for now. Read the book in 2068

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWPTATCpx2c

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmTbuCN1k9c

considering ergs! were one of my favorite bands to see, play with, listen to, anything, i'm really excited that Mikeys releasing some fresh shit, an albums worth. as a song writer i rank him alongside Paul Westerberg, Brian Wilson, John Darnielle

the straight scoop from the man himself "About to start tracking my first full LP of original material since Upstairs/Downstairs."

with it.

https://youtu.be/aEryAoLfnAA

"Results from a new poll by left-leaning firm Public Policy Polling show that—among things like Muslim databases and travel bans based on religion—30 percent of Republican voters support the bombing of Agrabah, the imaginary Middle Eastern country from Disney's Aladdin cartoon.

The people who support wiping Aladdin's home off the map (if it actually existed on maps) also tend to back the inexplicably successful Donald Trump, with 45 percent of Agrabah-bombers saying they would vote for the Donald, according to PPP.

Public Policy Polling has a history of being poll trolls, and they didn't just stick to Republican voters this time around. The firm took to Twitter to say that 19 percent of Democrats also supported an Agrabah offensive, with 36 percent opposed. Apparently voters on both sides of the fence are pretty shitty at geography, some of them are just more bomb-y than others."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQl6PzXU4cQ