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...theres a discord?!

i don't have a job right now, trying desperately to find one. admittedly, i don't want to work with the general public, i'm a little exhausted by random harassment. so i'm trying to get even min wage 'inside jobs.' it's slow going. it sucks. but i have, for the first time, a tight group of incredibly supportive, non-fair-weather friends, i'm dating a wonderful woman and have a really wonderful sometimes-thing with another woman, trying to stay positive. it's hard, especially when you constantly are getting kinda fucked over or miss out on things by technicalities and fractions and illegal shit (like legit was working on an ADA case with a lawyer). it's hard. but what's the worst that can happen, right? i die? i've been facing that down my whole life and it doesn't scare me anymore and i'm up to spite death as long as i can.

;_;

Fair enough!

i've been loosely planning a trip out to black goat sanctuary so i will probably go to your spots!

i'm deeply concerned that i will never be able to play one reason songs ever again because i am truly too dense to figure out chords on my own

I shop in my local Chinatown and get bags of dried sweet potatoes. Great snack

I read this whenever it was first posted!  Such a solid read.  Made me proud to have grown up in the Southeastern punk scene.

Glad others saw and appreciated this. I honestly cried when I read it the first time. Strange we never crossed paths but I suppose I was more Florida/AL than Atlanta anyhow. But yeah it resonated so much with my feelings about my world then and my world now. I miss every chance to sleep in a strangers bed (platonic or not) and make ten people vegan breakfast and take long humid bike rides to infoshop cafes. It was winding down a little when I left but now it's so hard to find this again. Age and costs (of everything for everyone) and a lot of factors...

Congrats! I'm... Six? years in. It sucks but in a good way whatever thats meant to mean. If you wanna/need to chat dm me? I know the internet and shit makes that offer seem irrelevant but just throwing it out there

because i am hopelessly lonely and feel more feelings to this dead board than anything else online i will post here

this has been a bangup year for me reading. it's been hard for me to concentrate but i've been determined to finish some books and learn to not fixate on the internet, as much at least. i finished The Three-Body Problem, a Chinese sci fi novel set through the Cultural Revolution up to now. The summary I got when I asked what it was about was "science stops working," which I think tells you very little in reality but is also accurate.

As Black As Resistance was a great primer read. I had already thought/read a lot about what it wrote about but I would absolutely recommend it to more liberal types (not meaning to knock) who may want some outside perspectives.

Finally finished The Dispossessed after fits and starts of reading it for many years. I wish it was a little more sci/spec fic than it actually was but still, I can see how it was such a revolutionary book.

James C. Scott's Against The Grain is really hard to get through. He's an anarchist anthropologist who basically makes me feel like everything is hopeless and it's all been bad for so long. This isn't his point, it's often to point out the opposite, sites of resistance and how 'modern civilization' can manifest differently. But it can be hard to stomach all the bad over such a long period of time, it gets overwhelming. Very, very informative though.

The Vegetarian by Han Kang was really interesting and resonated a lot with me. A decade and a half of veganism and engagement with ecology made me feel a lot of what the primary protagonist/subject of the book goes through and have felt the same impulses and desires. It's not a political or polemnical book to be clear, just a novel that doesn't really touch much on the ins and outs of vegetarianism.

http://www.southerncultures.org/article/seasoned-punks/

Pcola was my first real punk stomping grounds around this time. I was never superfriends with most people but I dated a 309er, went to the shows, rode around the city, went to the scant protests and learned about vegan food and diy and anarchism. The Pcola punk scene probably ruined my life and I thank the void every day for that. I also would eventually do all this other places with other people in this scene, making the breakdown of things later very very upsetting and difficult. But this isn't about that-, this is just a bittersweet article that does not get into scene drama, just living and changing and taking the good with the bad.

Witch-hunt: Mysteries of The Salem Witch Trials

Prisoners of Geography
It examines Russia, China, the US, Latin America, the Middle East, Africa, Europe, Japan, Korea, and Greenland and the Arctic—their weather, seas, mountains, rivers, deserts, and borders—to provide a context often missing from our political reportage: how the physical characteristics of these countries affect their strengths and vulnerabilities and the decisions made by their leaders.It explains the complex geo-political strategies that shape the globe.

You may also be interested in James C Scott's The Art of Not Being Governed, where he discusses geographic scenarios that have allowed for avoidance/resistance to the state.

It's a great book. I love all of James C Scotts books I have read. I send them out through the prison book program I help run as much as I can/they come in. I honestly don't especially trust white anthropologists but he does a pretty decent job.

I am trying to read the Golden Gulag because I love Critical Resistance/Ruthie Gilmores input in the world but it's muuuch more of a slog through her sociogeographic mind (as brilliant as it is). I just read The End of Policing which isn't really written for me, and that's a good thing - I am immersed in that world so I already knew a lot of what he was saying but it's a GREAT way to make police abolition accessible to people who may be new to the idea. Same thing with As Black As Resistance - not really for me since I've read This Nonviolence Stuff and We Will Shoot Back but it's an excellent way to get people on board with the ideas.

What a beautiful house. UGH. I was looking at a couple smaller houses with long lots that would definitely need to be fixed up, but that I really wanted to make into a social space (it was already a split-residency). But even in a (relatively) affordable far end of Brooklyn (not the 'cool'/gentrified part of Brooklyn) that means they were about 1.2 million a piece even with the shitty ass falling apart house. My partner and I are seriously considering moving to her hometown, a growing but kinda meh place in MD north of DC because we just can't afford anything here and it's at least kinda cute? I really don't like the idea of owning property or being in this very divided, individual 'my house' situation but I also think we're at a dark place in society. My neighbors don't talk to me even when I try to talk to them (except a couple super old school elderly Brooklynites) and it's very mixed race and not gentrified so it's not even like I'm perceived as an 'outsider'. So kinda like, fuck it? I'll go somewhere else then, get my house, make it open to all the weird trans and gay kids getting kicked out of their parents house, let them play shows, grow food for a mutual aid organization... I guess maybe it's just opening a new door to a different kind of life project.

Witch-hunt: Mysteries of The Salem Witch Trials

Prisoners of Geography
It examines Russia, China, the US, Latin America, the Middle East, Africa, Europe, Japan, Korea, and Greenland and the Arctic—their weather, seas, mountains, rivers, deserts, and borders—to provide a context often missing from our political reportage: how the physical characteristics of these countries affect their strengths and vulnerabilities and the decisions made by their leaders.It explains the complex geo-political strategies that shape the globe.

You may also be interested in James C Scott's The Art of Not Being Governed, where he discusses geographic scenarios that have allowed for avoidance/resistance to the state.

I tried but it just doesn't work without the music, which is dead on a hard drive in a landfill somewhere

Ill checkm out. I need something to feel. I missed Bent Outta Shape and I was still down in Pensacola then, so I looked them up and comparing them to Hickey, Crimpshrine and The Replacements which you also did is forcing me to listen. That sounds really great. Fun fact, a Let It Be cd was one of the first things I ever stole.

I mean, I'm 30. I have the tools but every conversation is just so fucking hollow. Even in organizing spaces it's just... so dull. I get it, we're getting older and things are retread paths and most things are a bummer to actually talk about. I'd rather have a bummer of a conversation on something and maybe roll into the things that are exciting and have a real human experience than just have a ten minute gab at a party and move on.

Non-podcast stuff:

My life has been in a weird, constant state of upheaval this year and it's really stressing me out/making my anxiety and depression real bad because my relative stability was a large part of what was helping me keep it together. So far this year I lost my health insurance in a string of dumb shit that were half my fault/half getting fucked by the company, got semi-secretly married in order to get on Rob's insurance, the building I've lived in for over ten years sold and our rent went up $250 a month as a result, the company I've worked at for almost 8 years got sold and now they've slashed hours, laid people off, done a bunch of really petty and infuriating shit, and I'm basically going to get bumped back down into the call center since their salaried data analysis team is scooping my job out from under me.

So now I'm going to be 31 in less than two weeks and I'm just clueless about what I'm doing and what I want to be doing and how to move forward.

I will never not be frustrated by the dynamic of working for a company to the point where they are so successful they get purchased and then everyone who did the work gets fucked. It's so upsetting. I didn't love the job but I definitely needed it/a stable workplace and this happened to me a few years back. I never really recovered financially and professionally. I love that I can get Medicaid but I've had it cancelled three times because of widescale clerical issues so I just had gaps in my medication and psych visits (happened to a few friends also). Just the bare minimum of getting and staying on your feet is such a goddamn challenge apparently.

i feel like i haven't had a conversation with another person in years, i feel like i never want to take the time to explain my actual point of view so i just say something expected

I'm so fucking desperate for human connection but everyone seems too burnt out to have it and it's never fulfilling anymore, it's either fucking or trying to network (often for good reasons in my circles but still)
I just want to feel something again
Even with the arguments on here that could happen it felt fucking real even though I missed all the chances to meet y'all and get in on the hijinx tat action (missed by like, a mile or two many times)

God forbid you take measures to recover, they should be proud if they actually stigmatize addiction that much. People are hypocritical pieces of shit sometimes.

I check in every month but just don't have anything to say. I just don't see anyone anymore that were involved in this, the bands are all but gone, there aren't any shows I really want to see aside from a few pix adjacent bands. I know the queer poc scene is a thing and I was involved but it really started to turn into a cool club honestly, and I didn't have the energy to be on either side of the dichotomy. Rich fuckin irony there. Not doing zines now for the same reason. Honestly Erik was a big uniter too in my neck of the woods and could pull a lot of people together and, well, that's that. Folk punk now has been eclipsed by the Johnny hobo-days n daze rips which is fine in doses/part of the whole but I just can't make that my world. So what's there to say? I miss it and I miss you, I miss my exes and my lovers and my friends and roadmates. I've tried other worlds and I get I'm not young anymore and nothing really lasts, but I just can't find something else I feel as good in. Bummer it wasn't REALLY south at the end.

Im all for physical obstruction but something tells me the people smashing chalk in a free space aren't the ones I want to do it with

i have forgotten eight old accounts so here i am again because i thought yall would get a kick out of hearing it. i was trying to say that we didnt hate crustie folkies in response to that accusation and ended up in an argument where they could not understand I wasn't conflating hating crusties with hating a specific group of people that shit on the playground slide in 2006 (which i was around for, natch). i never thought i'd have to discuss that again but everything old is new again, thats a saying, right?!

clicker training is just an improvement on positive reinforcement dog training. people will pay you to do it because they hate dogs until they're obedient which is pretty telling about our society.