it was instinctual to check here when i get online because i've been doing it for over 15 years, which is fucking insane when i think about that and i don't want it to be the case but i guess we're old and.. old.
It was barely alive on life support when PIX was still around. With PIX gone... It's bleak.
I probably post as much as I ever did. The unifying factor was PIX (which for me meant my town and a few friends and acquaintances), so all the random convos could at least connect back to that.
I play music more than I ever did, which feels great. I like that music has stuck with me regardless of the various social scenes and dramas that always seem to rip stuff apart. Now I'm at that stage where I want to make it grow into another dramatic social scene that will rip itself apart... ok, not the drama or ripping it apart stage... I just want to build something or contribute to something that feels good and surprises me.
I still swing by this board regularly. I may not post, but I'm reading.
I check this several times a day out of habit.
I check in every month but just don't have anything to say. I just don't see anyone anymore that were involved in this, the bands are all but gone, there aren't any shows I really want to see aside from a few pix adjacent bands. I know the queer poc scene is a thing and I was involved but it really started to turn into a cool club honestly, and I didn't have the energy to be on either side of the dichotomy. Rich fuckin irony there. Not doing zines now for the same reason. Honestly Erik was a big uniter too in my neck of the woods and could pull a lot of people together and, well, that's that. Folk punk now has been eclipsed by the Johnny hobo-days n daze rips which is fine in doses/part of the whole but I just can't make that my world. So what's there to say? I miss it and I miss you, I miss my exes and my lovers and my friends and roadmates. I've tried other worlds and I get I'm not young anymore and nothing really lasts, but I just can't find something else I feel as good in. Bummer it wasn't REALLY south at the end.