i don't have a job right now, trying desperately to find one. admittedly, i don't want to work with the general public, i'm a little exhausted by random harassment. so i'm trying to get even min wage 'inside jobs.' it's slow going. it sucks. but i have, for the first time, a tight group of incredibly supportive, non-fair-weather friends, i'm dating a wonderful woman and have a really wonderful sometimes-thing with another woman, trying to stay positive. it's hard, especially when you constantly are getting kinda fucked over or miss out on things by technicalities and fractions and illegal shit (like legit was working on an ADA case with a lawyer). it's hard. but what's the worst that can happen, right? i die? i've been facing that down my whole life and it doesn't scare me anymore and i'm up to spite death as long as i can.