I realize I'm really lucky in that I'm still on my mom's fairly good health insurance until the end of the year, and can afford stupidly high co-pays when necessary.
With that said, I really wish that some of y'all would seek psychiatric help if you're able to do so. To some, it feels like giving up. To me, it's admitting that for the time being, things are too rough to handle without professional help. I'd rather not put my whole story out there on the internet, but if anyone needs someone to talk to who's recently been through hell, you're more than welcome to PM me.