knowing how i feel about my boo/our future plans together, if we ended up breaking up for whatever reason, i think it would take me way longer than 8 months to get over that. it's more than just losing your love and your partner, you have to grieve the death of the future you planned together, explicitly or implicitly, and that can take a really fucking long time. i hope it's gotten and keeps getting easier buddy.
-/+ really really torn on my job situation. a friend recently got a new job as a virtual receptionist and the company she's working for seems really amazing and also the work seems REALLY EASY AND CHILL and once she gets permanent status (after 90 days) she gets a $2 raise and will be making more than what i'm making now, and she was a position below me at my current job. she is 100% sure i could get a job at the same place and i'm running out of reasons to stay where i am. i'm getting soooo burned out by all the shitty shit i have to deal with all day and the promises that were made to me are looking more and more like bullshit and my new manager who seemed really promising for training me is turning out to be kind of the worst. I have reasons to stay - I love the company i work for (most of the time) and i love working with clothes and rad ladies and i've made some pretty serious commitments to my district manager, plus the prospect of moving to alaska... but at this point i'm busting my ass to pick up the slack of everyone else, including my manager, and honestly that's all i've ever done at this store, despite being promised otherwise countless times. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DOOOOO