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Title: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on June 10, 2014, 02:36:04 PM
- it just went from clear to tornado weather outside right now  :-\
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Post by: ramblinrabble on June 10, 2014, 06:15:20 PM
Way to start off the thread on a down note.
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Post by: Phitney on June 10, 2014, 06:26:15 PM
Aaron, I cannot wait for storms when I get back east!!!!

+ My boss let me go home "early" today. And by "early," I mean 5 even though that's technically when my shift ends but never does.
+ Throwback skate jams night!!
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Post by: Rapture Ready Blowhard on June 10, 2014, 06:33:36 PM
- it just went from clear to tornado weather outside right now  :-\

Be careful out there.  Tornados are the absolute worst.
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Post by: momitsnowme on June 10, 2014, 09:20:03 PM
Noo..this thread is what killed th old board!
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Post by: skateandannoy on June 10, 2014, 09:43:38 PM
-the old board is dead
+it regenerated Dr. Who style

Noo..this thread is what killed th old board!
I agree, fuck this thread and it's predecessor. I<3 Aaron though and I hope he's okay!
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Post by: dakotafloyd on June 11, 2014, 08:36:55 PM
- so much school work
+ feels good to be doing something
- not enough hours at work
+ PIXfest is so soon!
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Post by: moreaboutwhozackis on June 14, 2014, 03:26:34 AM
- My entire body is in terrible pain
+ I learned how to do roofing
- I can't sleep
+ I have a show tomorrow benefiting my friend Jeff's sister, I'm gonna get to play the song I wrote finally
+ I have a construction apprenticeship that may be starting soon
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Post by: rory on June 14, 2014, 09:38:03 AM
+ I went on tour and it was great!
- I got sick and super lost my voice
+ Not having a voice was pretty funny for a few days.
-/+ Got pulled over in the homestretch for driving too slowly, and our guitarist had to tell the officers that our band name is Anybody But The Cops. In hindsight, that's really great.
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Post by: RankResistance on June 14, 2014, 11:46:35 AM
+ I'm buying a house, on which I close next week! It is "the one" my partner and I fell in love with instantly. I'm psyched.
+ I'm getting married in a few months.
+ It's summer! However, I am still taking gifted endorsement classes for my job and coaching high school baseball, but still...summer. I'll even have a month after I move to get settled.

- At a time when most people would say my life is coming together quite nicely (and it is, I do not argue), my anxiety and depression has sort of hopped back onto the dance floor and made their presence known again. I've gone to doctors, I've gotten medication, and usually the medication makes me feel infinitely worse (nausea, headaches, etc.).
- The most stressful thing about this whole yuppie lifestyle is the fear that with this kind of stability comes the knowledge that I will be trapped in my current career. I hate it and I want out but I don't know what else I'm qualified to do. Year One was the worst experience of my life and everyone said "It's that way for everyone." So I changed schools and tried again. Ditto for year two. Everyone has said "You're still finding your bearings. Give it another go." I am under contract through next year and I'm willing to give it a shot, but I don't think I can teach twenty more years.
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Post by: Courtney on June 14, 2014, 03:51:19 PM
Things people would normally make a thread to discuss end up getting buried in here. I'm starting a new thread in protest.
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Post by: bee on June 14, 2014, 06:59:22 PM
+ finished work and now i'm off for a week and a half (although my job is pretty cool so it's no big deal)
- i am super tired but kinda have stuff to do but will probably just sleep and now i feel stressed thinking about that
+ before i decide whether to sleep or work i'm gonna eat some delicious gyoza dumplings
+ on tuesday i'm going to chicago for a coupla days and then pixfest
- kinda freaking out about money rn
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Post by: Anna Karina on June 14, 2014, 07:03:22 PM
- It's my birthday and I haven't heard anything from on of my best friends yet, and it's over in five hours.
+ I celebrated with him and other friends at Beachwood (one of my favorite breweries) last weekend, so I guess that's good enough. Oh well.
- Had plans to go see Night Moves with another best friend tonight, but she's gonna be at a baby shower that's running late so we're no longer seeing the movie
+ I switched plans last minute to eat and drink at Beer Belly with a few other friends, and Hoppy Birthday is on the tap list, and it's my favorite beer ever, plus there are like six other amazing beers on their tap list tonight. Oh my.
+ Friend who I was supposed to see Night Moves with bought me tickets to see Chad VanGaalen with her on Wednesday as a birthday present, and I've been excited for months, and that's, like, four days away. Woo!
- Money, blergh
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Post by: Gator Punch on June 15, 2014, 11:32:02 AM
+A band of mine is actually productive, as in practice at least twice a week, and our first show coming up soon. After years of writing shitty songs, its nice to actually be playing said shitty songs.
+I graduated from college last month with a degree in English.
-Still have another year of teacher prep, including student teaching, before I'm certified. 
-All this is making me feel like an adult, which is scary.
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Post by: RankResistance on June 15, 2014, 11:52:13 AM
+I graduated from college last month with a degree in English.
-Still have another year of teacher prep, including student teaching, before I'm certified. 

Congrats. Are you looking to teach English? What age group?
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Post by: moreaboutwhozackis on June 15, 2014, 07:41:48 PM
+The show yesterday went great
+I have actual fans now
+My new song is really well liked
-I pulled something in my leg while skanking and can hardly walk
+May have met one of my favorite people in existence.
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Post by: avivatigerlily on June 16, 2014, 04:58:16 AM
+getting naloxone trained today

+excited its with the Washington Heights Corner Project where my girlfriend works
http://www.buzzfeed.com/johnknefel/the-controversial-answer-to-americas-heroin-surge

-wish i didnt feel i should, not like, in a 'fucking drug users' way, just in a 'this is just kind of passively unfortunate in the way many things in the world are' way
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Post by: Gator Punch on June 16, 2014, 05:12:38 AM
+I graduated from college last month with a degree in English.
-Still have another year of teacher prep, including student teaching, before I'm certified. 

Congrats. Are you looking to teach English? What age group?

Thanks. I am looking to teach English, and hopefully high school.
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Post by: RankResistance on June 16, 2014, 07:23:40 AM
+I graduated from college last month with a degree in English.
-Still have another year of teacher prep, including student teaching, before I'm certified. 

Congrats. Are you looking to teach English? What age group?

Thanks. I am looking to teach English, and hopefully high school.

TURN AND RUN AWAY!
(Just kidding. Sort of. That's what I teach, World Lit and American Lit. I'm about to start my third year, so I'm hoping to finally get my bearings and establish a bit of a routine. Let me know if you need anything.)
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Post by: hatmoose on June 16, 2014, 08:21:13 AM
+getting naloxone trained today

+excited its with the Washington Heights Corner Project where my girlfriend works
http://www.buzzfeed.com/johnknefel/the-controversial-answer-to-americas-heroin-surge

-wish i didnt feel i should, not like, in a 'fucking drug users' way, just in a 'this is just kind of passively unfortunate in the way many things in the world are' way
this is really cool, i only heard about naloxone for the first time a few months ago. i should learn more.
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Post by: Vagroaches on June 16, 2014, 09:34:52 AM
+ SUMMER
- Mosquito bites
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Post by: Gator Punch on June 16, 2014, 02:13:10 PM
+I graduated from college last month with a degree in English.
-Still have another year of teacher prep, including student teaching, before I'm certified. 

Congrats. Are you looking to teach English? What age group?

Thanks. I am looking to teach English, and hopefully high school.

TURN AND RUN AWAY!
(Just kidding. Sort of. That's what I teach, World Lit and American Lit. I'm about to start my third year, so I'm hoping to finally get my bearings and establish a bit of a routine. Let me know if you need anything.)

Haha, that's why I'm getting so nervous. All I've heard is how difficult it is, but once you figure out what works, it's very rewarding. We'll see. And thanks. I'm sure I'll make use of your help. 
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Post by: jerkemy on June 16, 2014, 04:37:36 PM
+ moved apartments recently and was able to find a place that doesn't break bike commute-ability

+ hopefully about to get a practice space literally in between said apartment and job

+ job is also pretty cool (doing IT for a small nonprofit that works on global women's human rights issues)

- feel like I never have time for stuff

- have fully realized that's due to my own laziness and disorganization and still can't seem to fix it
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Post by: AaronTheCabe on June 16, 2014, 05:27:24 PM
+ I HAVE HAIR
-I HAVE HAIR
+ I have a beard!
- Its too hot to have a beard or hair ;)
- i don't look like spider jerusalem or captain picard or any cool looking guy whose at a loss (pun intended) of facial and hair on head
+ i totally am looking like a wheezywaiter clone, or Vsauce clone or any cool guy with slight loss of hair but continues to grow it and a nice big bushy beard

+/- i can't figure out if i want to shave all this hot hairy mess off or not. its just soooooooo hoooooooot
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Post by: kw on June 17, 2014, 05:45:37 PM
- my partner just left for a week, and we spend an incredibly large amount of time together, so it will be weird to not have them around.
+ they're off doing really fun, positive things, so my negative feelings are quite tempered, and mostly i am just stoked for them
+ gonna spend some time with my grandfather and look for new jobs this week
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Post by: avivatigerlily on June 18, 2014, 04:08:10 AM
+getting naloxone trained today

+excited its with the Washington Heights Corner Project where my girlfriend works
http://www.buzzfeed.com/johnknefel/the-controversial-answer-to-americas-heroin-surge

-wish i didnt feel i should, not like, in a 'fucking drug users' way, just in a 'this is just kind of passively unfortunate in the way many things in the world are' way
this is really cool, i only heard about naloxone for the first time a few months ago. i should learn more.

Yeah. I got trained to administer it intranasally and not intramuscularly, so I don't even have to jab a needle into someone, just spray into their nostrils. Training was quick and easy, it's a straightforward process because there aren't really any down sides to administering it, intranasally isn't really as imposing as trying to get a dose in a needle ready, and dealing with an identifiably unconscious person gives you some options (though time isn't one of them). But yeah, as far as the downsides/misadministering goes, I could take it right now at work and it wouldn't do anything bad. Worst case is someone starts getting dope sick because it basically induces withdrawal if that person was, say, just nodding out and you misidentified them as being unconscious somehow. So... that sucks, but they aren't going to die. Like, it's so easy they said that I could just volunteer to train other people after just one training.
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Post by: FolkTheGovernment on June 24, 2014, 12:58:35 PM
+ got my license Friday for pix fest
+ pix fest was great
+ made new friends/met great people
+ sat and talked with Ramshackle Glory for half an hour before they left
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Post by: rory on June 24, 2014, 01:23:29 PM
+ Pixfest!
-/+ Pixfest was hard and perhaps I am an old old man instead of a young wide eyed punk. But seeing friends from all over was so great, and Emperor X / Eric Ayotte got me bawling my little eyes out.
+++ When I went away for the weekend, a friend of mine took my moped (which has been broken for almost two years) and was able to fix it already! It's up and running! I am mobile again!
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Post by: bee on June 24, 2014, 08:29:10 PM
+ pix fest was cool and i met some babes
- it was less cool because of anxiety, ticks, and having to be around a couple of people that make me feel sorta uncomfortable
+/- my general feeling right now is "bleh"
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Post by: tim on June 24, 2014, 11:00:14 PM
+ pix fest was, in fact, cool

Pixfest was hard and perhaps I am an old old man instead of a young wide eyed punk.

Yeah. :/
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Post by: Seta on June 25, 2014, 05:36:59 AM
++ pixfest and hanging with people I rarely get to see
- still not great at talking to strangers, even if those strangers are kids. stupid brain.

+ I'm buying a house, on which I close next week! It is "the one" my partner and I fell in love with instantly. I'm psyched.
+ I'm getting married in a few months.
+ It's summer! However, I am still taking gifted endorsement classes for my job and coaching high school baseball, but still...summer. I'll even have a month after I move to get settled.

- At a time when most people would say my life is coming together quite nicely (and it is, I do not argue), my anxiety and depression has sort of hopped back onto the dance floor and made their presence known again. I've gone to doctors, I've gotten medication, and usually the medication makes me feel infinitely worse (nausea, headaches, etc.).
- The most stressful thing about this whole yuppie lifestyle is the fear that with this kind of stability comes the knowledge that I will be trapped in my current career. I hate it and I want out but I don't know what else I'm qualified to do. Year One was the worst experience of my life and everyone said "It's that way for everyone." So I changed schools and tried again. Ditto for year two. Everyone has said "You're still finding your bearings. Give it another go." I am under contract through next year and I'm willing to give it a shot, but I don't think I can teach twenty more years.

congrats!
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Post by: avivatigerlily on June 30, 2014, 10:12:19 AM
+I've been seeing a lot of friends lately that I haven't seen in a long time (ranging from a year and a half to six years). Different tours and travel have been bringing old flames and best friends and overseas-ers to my city and to my home and it's been a fucking lovely month of catching up and being emotional and reminiscing and forming new bonds and processing the past.

-it reminds me of, while i (+++++)love the family im building at home, i really profoundly miss and do not see often enough many of the beautiful, brilliant, talented, fraught, struggling, wonderful people that mean so much to me each in their own ways.  it's a shame  we are often so far away and i get to see them so infrequently.
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Post by: Pwoink on June 30, 2014, 10:28:33 AM
+ pix fest was, in fact, cool

Pixfest was hard and perhaps I am an old old man instead of a young wide eyed punk.

Yeah. :/

What do you guys mean by that?
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Post by: rory on June 30, 2014, 10:38:59 AM
I had a tough time maintaining energy in the heat and humidity, the sun, the lack of food (aka the lack of my own preparation), being in crowds. I've seen so many great bands and met so many great people through and because of PIX, but after a few fests I feel like I just cannot do stuff like that anymore. My enthusiasm no longer seems to outweigh my discomfort.

But there were also some other factors going on that probably led to this feeling, and it was probably just circumstantial.
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Post by: Pwoink on June 30, 2014, 02:23:44 PM
Yeah, those are all tough factors! I know I had to take more breaks just laying and reading in some shade (even missing bands) just 'cause I needed to spend more time to maintain my comfort levels. But, hey, fests aren't for everyone no matter their age, anyway!
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Post by: rory on June 30, 2014, 03:34:00 PM
Totally. I guess I went with "old" because it seemed like a development in my life to be less capable to handle, rather than just the fact that it was just tough in general.

But now that I'm away from everything, I'm already prepared to find myself at some other queer friendly punk free for all haven.
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Post by: lindsey on July 01, 2014, 09:00:23 PM
---- TMI ALERT i got an IUD implanted today and fuuuuuck my body is so mad at me now. having extreme period-style cramps for the first time in 2+ years and lord i was not ready. no amount of ibuprofen or lets be honest, marijuana, is helping me out of this mess. hopefully i'll feel better tomorrow cause i'm starting a nine day stretch!
---- despite loving my new boss, i still managed to find myself in a situation where she's going on vacation and i'm left trying to run the store with a management team that is so shitty it's not even endearing in an underdog sort of way. so over it.
+ getting paid a day early and with two solid 40 hrs weeks AND a sales bonus!
+ i got my boob lump checked out and yay i don't have breast cancer!

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Post by: AaronTheCabe on July 02, 2014, 04:53:00 PM
- i am sad as fuck all the fucking time
+good to hear lindsey doesn't have the cancer
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Post by: dakotafloyd on July 02, 2014, 08:12:29 PM
- So so so busy with school stuff all the time.
+ Plan-It-X Fest was great.  Lots of fun shows have happened since I got back.
- Tired.
+ Going to a baseball game on the Fourth of July.
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Post by: rory on July 04, 2014, 06:59:27 PM
- I'm way more freaked out by the fireworks in my neighborhood this year than I've ever been before. It's probably that they're legal in Michigan now for only the 2nd or 3rd year, but it's still overwhelming. I'd usually bike to a parking garage downtown and watch fireworks in all directions, but I'm too scared to get there.
+ My Danelectro baritone guitar is so badass, and I finally feel like I get guitar.
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Post by: lindsey on July 04, 2014, 10:42:00 PM
- i am sad as fuck all the fucking time
+good to hear lindsey doesn't have the cancer

thanks buddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

+ me and my boo decided to move to alaska in 12-16 months if we can possibly make it happen!!!!!!!!
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Post by: Courtney on July 05, 2014, 07:51:28 AM
ALASKA!? What the hell? How's that gonna work for G's acting career?

+IT'S MY MOTHERFUCKIN' BIRTHDAY, Y'ALL.
+I feel pretty great on these new meds. Motivation! Energy! Happiness!
+my mom decided to surprise me and fly up because she was worried and for once I'm being PLEASANT!
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Post by: jer on July 05, 2014, 02:19:10 PM
Why would anyone choose to live in Alaska? This is bizarre.
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Post by: -S- on July 09, 2014, 05:57:02 PM
- boring city
- boring country
- few friends
+ a new banjo !
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Post by: lindsey on July 09, 2014, 07:31:36 PM
alaska is gonna be DOPE! we're definitely not planning on living there for more than 2 years, and Juneau (the city we'd move to) has a cute little arts community to explore and G would come back to portland for the summers which is when he does most of his acting anyway.

i would choose to live in alaska because it is incredibly beautiful and i want to experience living there! I've wanted to live in alaska for as long as i can remember, it just seems like a foreign dream land! i would definitely get tired of wilderness and living in a tiny ass town after a while though, which is why we're planning something super short term. the opportunity has made itself known so i want to go for it and see if we can make it happen. ALASKAAAAAA!!!! i can't believe there's even a question of why, it seems so amazing!!!!!
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Post by: moreaboutwhozackis on July 09, 2014, 08:06:18 PM
+I made new friends and might be getting signed to a DIY label in the area!
+I tanned amazingly and am now a bronze god
+I got to drink so much root beer!
-the girl i was seeing decided that a dude she met and hardly knew an hour was mister perfect, and dumped me.
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Post by: ramblinrabble on July 10, 2014, 02:43:15 AM
alaska is gonna be DOPE! we're definitely not planning on living there for more than 2 years, and Juneau (the city we'd move to) has a cute little arts community to explore and G would come back to portland for the summers which is when he does most of his acting anyway.

i would choose to live in alaska because it is incredibly beautiful and i want to experience living there! I've wanted to live in alaska for as long as i can remember, it just seems like a foreign dream land! i would definitely get tired of wilderness and living in a tiny ass town after a while though, which is why we're planning something super short term. the opportunity has made itself known so i want to go for it and see if we can make it happen. ALASKAAAAAA!!!! i can't believe there's even a question of why, it seems so amazing!!!!!

Poop on Sarah Palins doorstep please
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Post by: Rapture Ready Blowhard on July 12, 2014, 08:15:14 PM
-  EDIT: was sad and angry last night.  I drank some alcohol, and wound up sadder and angrier.  Funny how that works.
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Post by: AaronTheCabe on July 13, 2014, 09:08:55 AM
-  EDIT: was sad and angry last night.  I drank some alcohol, and wound up sadder and angrier.  Funny how that works.

i saw it right before going to bed and just got on to tell ya sorry you felt bad last night. I also sympathize because also yesterday i got riled up when a friend of a friend of facebook insinuated that i was closed minded and suffering from cognitive dissonance because i didn't agree with their pov about the Israeli / Hamas conflict. A lot of people seem to be throwing around analogies to the native americans for the palestinian peoples, which i do not think is apt at all and tend to side with Israel after being in a global politics class where we really delved into Israeli/ Hamas/ Hezbolla and while i also don't want any innocence to die, Hamas and Hezbolla both tend to launch their rockets from civilian spaces, in a way i think they're more civil militia groups affiliated with the same named political group. They aren't terrorists but normal people fighting for whatever they believe in but they do put their people intentionally in harms way. I got to hear a member of hamas speak to our global politics class for 90 mins (and then the next class a 90 min. presentation from israeli consulate). Now don't get me wrong, both were filled with propgandha. but the palestinian hamas (political member not militia) admitted that the militias attack from civilian quarters in order to try to get the least amount of retaliation. sorry  i know this isn't the place for this and i'm gonna stop, its a fucked up situation, i don't think any of it is good. so you can see i got caught up in much the same way, albeit reversed. your mother had no right to say what you said though, and i didn't imply that those against israel were somehow antisemetic which is why i got soooo pissed off when "i'm closed minded" because i don't agree with this one person pov. i hate facebook.
/rant
tldr; sorry you felt bad mike, <3, its all good
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Post by: lovelyseaside on July 14, 2014, 01:00:37 PM
+ happiest i've been in a long, long time.
+ awesome healthy sex on the reg~
+/- i have an interview tmrw for a promotion. i'm the only one being interviewed, it was sort of just sprung on me. if i do well & get this my life will be so much easier. at least a $4 more/hr raise, pto, more benefits, and guaranteed more hours.

+/-- still at a really weird place where i love and hate my body at the same time. i pretty much only feel comfortable in dresses as of late. learning to love love love this vessel i am in is hard.
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Post by: lovelyseaside on July 14, 2014, 01:01:10 PM
+ oh & posting on this board is great and i am happy to be back on here :)
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Post by: bee on July 14, 2014, 07:25:32 PM
+ i just ate some nice pizza
+/- finally talking some stuff out with someone who made me feel pretty sad before i left the uk
- i need money
+ i am happy alexis is here
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Post by: dakotafloyd on July 14, 2014, 08:23:39 PM
+ (Kinda) New Endless Mike and the Beagle Club record
+ Other friend named Mike is putting out a new record tomorrow.
+ 4.0 my first semester of grad school.
+ Going on my first solo tour in five years in a month.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on July 30, 2014, 10:57:42 AM
FIRE WALK WITH ME
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Post by: Joe on July 30, 2014, 03:56:37 PM
+ 4.0 my first semester of grad school.

Congrats on the 4.0 dakota.  Also, one time I wrote "www.internet.com"(or something similar) on some outgoing mail to you when I was visiting Cairo, just because I recognized your name from PIXboard as I was going through a stack.

+my new job has gotten super awesome in the last year, and I just got a huge raise and I feel like I'm worth it.
+an analog audio electronics class that wouldn't admit outside majors is now opening an online certificate program and I'm enrolled this semester.
+My hackerspace just moved into a 3300 square foot warehouse, and its biking distance.  4-years ago we had 120 square feet downtown. 2 years ago we moved into 1500, but it was really far away and I rarely went.

-I've been feeling slightly distanced from all of my best friends for the past 6 months. . .   Some seem addicted to nostalgia, some seem stuck in the limbo of pubs, and others seem trapped behind their own eyes.

+I'm beginning to not feel so guilty about being an artist.   

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Post by: bee on August 01, 2014, 04:53:22 PM
+ today i got some of the soap i make up for sale in a shop in toronto for the first time since being here so that's pretty exciting for me
+ the sewing machine i ordered off the internet arrived today yay
+ i ordered some cute boots (calf-high black vegan doc martens)
- been having a stressful time contacting my ex to get back money/some of my things that appear to be taking me months to get back
+/- i start a second job on tuesday. yay extra money but boo i'll be working 7 days a week. not all full days but still, one day completely off would be nice
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Post by: kw on August 02, 2014, 08:00:05 PM
- today someone destroyed my bike (snapped the handlebars, bent the fork, broke the wheel, bent the frame, brakes, etc. its like they drove into it repeatedly with a scooter or took a bat to it.) they also left a note on my bike that read "fagot." they couldn't even put the second g in.
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Post by: momitsnowme on August 02, 2014, 08:36:30 PM
Wtf, that is awful, kw. I'm sorry. :(
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Post by: AaronTheCabe on August 02, 2014, 09:54:32 PM
i'm sorry the world is shit KW. you shouldn't have to experience that. i can't imagine that kind of hate for hate's sake.

i''m giving up on hope and life personally. not that i think it matters much. sayin'
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Post by: Courtney on August 03, 2014, 10:08:41 AM
What in the fuck, kw. I wonder if they were targeting you specifically, or just looking for a nice bike to smash up. Either way, be careful, dude.

+Meds are working and I feel better than I have in a long time.
+Side effects include loss of appetite, which isn't bad when you're obese. Just making sure I get enough healthy calories every day.
+Friend that I thought I was squarely in the "friend" category with... not so much :).
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Post by: Rapture Ready Blowhard on August 04, 2014, 05:13:01 AM
+  I'm starting on the job hunt again (my supervisors at work are super supportive, by the way), and for a while it was slim pickings, but in the past couple of weeks I've been finding and applying to about five jobs a week or more.  Most of them are things I'm actually qualified to do, and I'd like to hope I have enough experience that I would at least be considered for them.  I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but I'm pretty excited.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kw on August 11, 2014, 05:57:33 PM
yeah, people are awful. luckily i no longer work where i did so i don't park my bike there anymore, and truly don't go to that part of town ever. i got the bike fixed and it looks / rides great... unfortunately it cost a lot, but i am happy to have it back.

Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on August 13, 2014, 07:26:22 PM
-ready to die
but i ain't gonna die here. any thoughts on where i could go?

+glad kw got his bike fixed. i love biking, my bike is like ..i don't know... the way some people think of their cars as a part of them. except its a bike cause cars suck
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on August 14, 2014, 07:18:40 AM
My bike received a little taped-on note about a local facebook closed queer group today. It's positive, obviously, but I can't help but feel a little wigged out that someone that I don't know has pieced me and my bike together.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on August 25, 2014, 12:49:45 PM
- My partner and her cat just moved away, beginning what we are calling "relationship medium mode" status. Everything has been so easy with us, we communicate so well and work together so well, so this is a major hurdle we're taking.
- I bawled my little eyes out listening to her cat crying in the crate, I'm gonna miss him so much!
-/+ though I am mildly excited to have a room to myself again, it's still in bummer phase.
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Post by: Phitney on August 26, 2014, 09:11:48 AM
Rory, that's so sad :( It seems like y'all have a pretty solid foundation, though, so I'm sure you guys can work through the distance. Also, this is an awesome opportunity to send each other neat things and letters in the mail!

+ Moving to Virginia Beach on Sunday
+ Excited to meet the new derby league and meet all of the roommates and explore a new city!
- Had to say goodbye to my derby league last night
---- E-mails with my ex. He says he has regrets about our breakup. I'm sad but also angry. Sad because I miss him and thought we were going to be life partners and I was more in love with him than I've ever been with anyone. Angry because fuck yeah he should have regrets (broke up after we moved across the country together, while I had a broken ankle, and all because he took it upon himself to decide that I "needed" to be taken care of and then he couldn't provide me with that when he admittedly said he knew deep down it wasn't what I needed because I never led him to believe that and he knew I can take care of myself)
- Whyyyyyy can't I just get over this dude already!? It's been over 8 months since we broke up!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: lindsey on August 26, 2014, 12:10:51 PM
knowing how i feel about my boo/our future plans together, if we ended up breaking up for whatever reason, i think it would take me way longer than 8 months to get over that. it's more than just losing your love and your partner, you have to grieve the death of the future you planned together, explicitly or  implicitly, and that can take a really fucking long time. i hope it's gotten and keeps getting easier buddy.

-/+ really really torn on my job situation. a friend recently got a new job as a virtual receptionist and the company she's working for seems really amazing and also the work seems REALLY EASY AND CHILL and once she gets permanent status (after 90 days) she gets a $2 raise and will be making more than what i'm making now, and she was a position below me at my current job. she is 100% sure i could get a job at the same place and i'm running out of reasons to stay where i am. i'm getting soooo burned out by all the shitty shit i have to deal with all day and the promises that were made to me are looking more and more like bullshit and my new manager who seemed really promising for training me is turning out to be kind of the worst. I have reasons to stay - I love the company i work for (most of the time) and i love working with clothes and rad ladies and i've made some pretty serious commitments to my district manager, plus the prospect of moving to alaska... but at this point i'm busting my ass to pick up the slack of everyone else, including my manager, and honestly that's all i've ever done at this store, despite being promised otherwise countless times. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DOOOOO

Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: amanda on August 26, 2014, 06:23:52 PM
+ I have a job interview at the end of the week. 
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: dakotafloyd on August 26, 2014, 09:12:44 PM
+ Started the first stages of student teaching today!  I'm in a fifth grade joint Language Arts / Social Studies classroom.
- It's 25 miles from my house, and sometimes I have to go there straight from an overnight shift at work.
- Food poisoning.
+ Grad classes started back up today.  Seems like they're gonna be fairly fun.
- I'm in class from 4 - 10 PM straight.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Rapture Ready Blowhard on August 27, 2014, 04:56:48 AM
+ Started the first stages of student teaching today!  I'm in a fifth grade joint Language Arts / Social Studies classroom.
- It's 25 miles from my house, and sometimes I have to go there straight from an overnight shift at work.

That's rough.  I worked a night shift at a hotel when I was in grad school, and one semester had to go from my job to six hours of classes (two classes, each of which were three hours long.)  Good luck!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: dakotafloyd on September 03, 2014, 09:30:32 PM
Yeah, I've definitely got some really long days.  Nothing too unmanageable, though.

+ My fifth graders are great!  They say so many goofy things.
- Booking / Playing / Going to fewer shows.
+ Looking at PhD programs?  Kind of a weird feeling, but it seems absolutely achievable.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: skateandannoy on September 23, 2014, 10:02:18 AM
I hate to bump this thread but,
+ I just schooled the living fuck out of an MRA #gamergate asshole on twitter and it felt so good to put that fucker in his place.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: lindsey on September 23, 2014, 10:44:18 AM
+ i have a job interview at a reeeeally exciting company and i'm so stoked!
- i'd have to give a really short notice at my current job because training starts on MONDAY ack
+ they'd fucked me over so many times I'm not thhaaaaaaat broken up about it?? I guess that makes me a shitty person
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: jer on September 23, 2014, 10:54:31 AM
I guess that makes me a shitty person

Company loyalty to an employer that doesn't give a shit about you isn't admirable. You're not a shitty person for not caring about those who don't care about you.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on September 23, 2014, 04:14:34 PM
+ I've been mostly adjusting to my partner being away at school and figuring out how to live alone again.
+ I love my room the way it's set up. It's a perfect productivity cave and I've been using it to great effect.
- My low-level constant anxiety is up, and I'm definitely reverting back to myself a few years ago with my in-group nervousness. Not having a person to fall back on is tough.
- I'm generally scheduled to work through the weekends, which are not only the hardest shifts my job has to offer, but because the tips are split instead of alone, also do not pay out as amply. I feel a bit like I'm being punished for being an employee who is up to snuff.
- Sometimes I worry I will never be able to get up the gumption to leave this job and try and embark on a new chapter of my life. I'm very attached to this job/this house/this city/this community but in some ways I feel like by not leaving I'm just limiting myself and taking the easy route.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: lindsey on September 24, 2014, 08:16:40 AM
I guess that makes me a shitty person

Company loyalty to an employer that doesn't give a shit about you isn't admirable. You're not a shitty person for not caring about those who don't care about you.

Thanks buddy. I definitely feel like I've given this company plenty of time and plenty of chances, but when my job starts to be a dark cloud over my whole life, and I have another, crazy amazing company that wants to come work for them, I can't justify putting myself through this anymore.

Anyway, on that note, I got the job! It's as a virtual receptionist and the place is, like I said, crazy amazing. They've won all these awards for being the best small company to work for in the US and I got a tour of the office yesterday and it's like magical land of happiness. It's like a call center on ecstasy. They have a huge laundry list of employee perks and benefits and I just can't wait. Plus I'll be working office hours for the first time ever and I won't be having my life threatened by shoplifters anymore!!!!

I'm going to tell my boss today... She's going to be soooo pissed. woooo 
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: jer on September 24, 2014, 09:07:19 AM
Sweet! Congrats!
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Post by: Phitney on September 24, 2014, 04:24:58 PM
Congrats, Lindsey!! Happy for ya
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Post by: momitsnowme on September 30, 2014, 08:43:40 PM
Awesome!! Congratulations!!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Semi on October 02, 2014, 09:12:10 AM
+ Wrote a song about Tenzing Norgay and Edmund Hillary, the first people to climb Mount Everest.
+ Wrote a song about honeybees and how cool they are, it's going to be called Natures Little Communists.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on October 02, 2014, 09:35:24 AM
- I have never thrown up from just drinking beer until last night. I feel totally awful.
- Going out to the bar by myself and drinking alone, really bad choice
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on October 03, 2014, 01:27:14 PM
- I have never thrown up from just drinking beer until last night. I feel totally awful.
- Going out to the bar by myself and drinking alone, really bad choice

woke up with a bit of hangover?

i hope that made you laugh! all peace

ac
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kw on October 04, 2014, 07:10:15 PM
+ thou's record heathen has kind of defined every positive and negative moment ive had this year. it is making me feel really important things when i am sad to help me feel better, and it is making me appreciate how great things are when i am doing well. fuck i missed loving music.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on October 05, 2014, 01:07:00 AM
+for the first time that I'm aware of since my partner, someone had a crush on me
-/+ Had to tell them I am in a monogamous relationship that is important to me
+ That's a positive mostly in that, even when we are apart, I feel really good and grounded in what my partner and I have. It's also positive because it's flattering, and it's positive to meet other queer kids that resonate with me, even if I do not feel like being romantically involved with anyone except my partner.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: lindsey on October 08, 2014, 09:49:48 PM
thanks for the encouragement guys! the first week and a half of my new job has been INTENSE! I really like it though and I'm meeting really rad people. now i wake up every morning at 6 and go to bed every night at 10. it's so wild. I'm getting used to the schedule pretty well and am starting to consider joining a gym to get more exercise now that I actually have energy. on the down side, my fucking old boss didn't enter my separation in the system until almost a week after I left, so I'm having to wait almost two weeks for my final paycheck, when it's supposed to come on the first business day after your last day if you give at least 48 hrs notice. Which I did. The brightside is I'm getting paid out for my PTO so my check is like $600 more! wooooo 

also me and gary are getting a hedgehog!!!!!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: jer on October 09, 2014, 08:39:04 AM
If you're not naming it sonic then it's a waste of a good hedgehog.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Phitney on October 09, 2014, 09:47:43 AM
Post pictures of the hedgehog when you get it!!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on October 14, 2014, 12:03:37 PM
+/- while i am still horribly suicidal to the point that i've been writing letters to put in envelopes for specific people, i am 2 week clean from last time i smoked meth. i went back to it for some reason and hit it hard. to get sober and stay that way i told my parents, gave my father my debit card, and gave my password to my online banking. basically giving me complete control of my finances. i should have done this a long time as its really the best way to keep me from making bad choices after seeing whatever various triggers that make me want to do it.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kid. on October 17, 2014, 10:21:55 AM
+i just remembered pix board after being busy with life and things for too long.
+just remembered Algernon existing this morning so im listening to that right now.
-missing carey and anthony and melody and the man cave before it was the crucial fun house and not even that anymore.
+i get to do a really fun tattoo tomorrow and im nervous but excited because it was really fun to draw.
+Love life is lingering on the back burner while i try to progress in the art territory
-kt is in oregon and should be here
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: dakotafloyd on October 17, 2014, 05:58:50 PM
Give me a tattoo, friend!

- Coworker is having to put down his dog (only 10 months old), and he's devastated.
+ Student teaching is going really well.
+ Got to talk (and take selfies) with John Lewis and his assistant Andrew Aydin today:

(http://i62.tinypic.com/2hhq2wz.jpg)
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kw on October 23, 2014, 09:22:26 AM
- was let go from a job i loved, without cause nor reason. laws in ontario state that within the first 3 months of working, the proprietor doesn't need a reason to let someone go. just that happened, even though as early as 5 days prior the owners told me how happy they were to have me there. it sucks, puts me in a precarious position financially, and sets me back in a time when i was focusing really hard on getting my mental health in order.

+ i have been playing music again recently after four-ish years of not doing so. it is weird, but it has been really positive to be playing as i work on figuring out what space in my life music can healthfully take up. we've been playing for a few months and the band is called "vile creature," it is kinda blackened doom metal-ish and i really enjoy what we have been writing,
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on October 23, 2014, 09:39:32 AM
States in the US that have the "right to work" law (which means right to fire, gotta love out politicians name their bills to mean the exact opposite of what they are) have the same thing, you can fire anyone for anything with no written reason within first 90 days
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: bee on October 26, 2014, 05:19:46 PM
- i spent ages being sad and down on myself over the latter part of summer and i feel like that didn't put me in the best position still being relatively new to the city/country/continent
- all that kinda led to a relationship going sorta weird
+ but that all has seemed to have given me a bit of a shake and now i'm trying to do things about it
- but seeing a doctor about mental health stuff when you're not eligible to be covered by healthcare is not easy
+/- so i'm generally pretty up and down right now but trying to be okay
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on October 27, 2014, 11:11:57 PM
+ My partner is moving back into town and leaving school!
- But not for another 2 months
- She'll probably not be happy to move back here, and soon find another school program, even further away, to look into. I'm happy for her but worried about what it means for me/us.
- I've been requiring a lot of attention these days, and I feel like my mental stability is slipping further with each week. I'm falling into habits that I should be and have been beyond.
+ At least I know myself well enough that I wont do anything that will hurt anyone else in the process. If I start slipping towards something more destructive than where I am now, there will be many more warning signs prior.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on November 01, 2014, 03:09:40 AM
my post halloween thoughts: Doing good deeds and favors and thoughtful things in leu of halloween activities isn't so bad. listening to dakota floyd's live UTC stuff at 6am having had no sleep because i drank too much beer to the point where if i did go to sleep, i wouldn't wake up in time to do my last good deed of the week, so i have to stay up and sober up. his music is going well with my ambigious feelings.

he's a much better musician than me and always says thanks after finishing a song. its making me smile
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: bee on November 01, 2014, 08:32:24 PM
+ i'm figuring out a lot of mental health stuff and feelings towards myself
+ been discussing hangouts and makeouts with a cutie
+ working on ways to maximise my creativity
+ planning a trip to california after christmas
+ been bonding super well with one of my roommates and am very glad that person exists in my life
- still feeling a little off about aforementioned relationship going weird although it seems to be on a better path now
- still feeling a little shaky as far as mental stability goes, but it could be and has been much worse
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Phitney on November 03, 2014, 03:07:38 PM
----- My paycheck from my job potentially bounced. The bank is going to try again tomorrow (I tried to cash it last Thursday), but if it doesn't go through (for the third time), it will have officially been rejected due to insufficient funds. Fuck my company.
- I learned about a lot of shady shit my company is doing, as well
- Late paying rent because of possibly bounced paycheck
- I found out I'm not getting PTO or sick pay benefits that I'm supposed to have as a salaried employee, either. Just another thing to add to the list of "Things I was promised by my company that have not been delivered" along with commission, health insurance, and working no more than 50 hours per week.

I've had my fears of my paychecks bouncing because I know my company isn't doing so well, but I never thought it would actually happen. If it doesn't go through tomorrow, I don't know what to do. I'm looking into the labor laws applicable to this situation, so I'll be prepared to talk to my boss about it.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: lindsey on November 04, 2014, 10:59:37 PM
+++++ weed is legal in oregon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Post by: michaelcopeland on November 04, 2014, 11:23:20 PM
+ played a show with Walter Mitty last night and it went great!
- rick scott is still our governer
+ I've decided to go straight edge and I've been sober for almost 2 weeks now
-- rick scott is still our governer
+/- I may move to Bentonville, Arkansas soon and work for Wal-Mart. Although I'm not happy about working for a company this big, I may finally be presented with an opportunity to get back on my feet.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on November 05, 2014, 08:08:32 AM
Keep up the good work on your sobriety, even though it'll be difficult with all I've heard about Rick Scott.

+ I had a really solid halloween. It was an event without going overboard.
+ I am contemplating cutting drinking out of my life, or taking it way down in the new year. I don't drink a ton, but I drink like a beer or two on the frequent, and I can see myself becoming much like my parents going this way.
-/+ In my neighborhood on halloween some fliers of a guy many of us know from local bands and from being a general character was circulated with info about him lying, manipulating, infidelity, knowingly spreading STIs, and threatening suicide in order for someone to get an abortion. It's got the whole neighborhood talking, and it is definitely bringing to light a lot of stuff that was only vaguely on rumor level for some time, but is coming out concrete in numbers. Some aspects of how this is being handled are going to create an unnecessary rift, but I think other aspects are doing a good job to give people awareness and protection from chronically shitty behavior. This is 3-4 years in the making in a way. I don't know. It's very complicated.
-/+ Two of my housemates that have been here for the last 3.5 years are moving out with less than a months notice. The short notice puts us in a bind, but it does mean that people get to shuffle around to better rooms, and hopefully we'll get a new person in the house that contributes to the house in meaningful ways.
+ I am currently involved in 7 musical projects?
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kw on November 05, 2014, 09:01:29 AM
- this job hunt is incredibly stressful and, so far, fruitless. i am really strapped and am, at this point, hoping for anything just so i can get my feet under me.
- i live in the second most expensive city in canada, and live alone... i chose to, which is a +, but it is incredibly expensive, hence the -

+ playing music again for the first time in years has been a real positive, and i've been doing it with my partner which has been really cool. we finished our first three songs, which is about 30min of music, and are gonna keep working on them til she is confidant enough to play a show. this could be fun!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: dakotafloyd on November 05, 2014, 08:14:12 PM
+ Lots of shows lately.  Delay, Spoonboy, Laura Stevenson, All Dogs, The Sidekicks, Hard Girls, Lipstick Homicide, and a ton of other great bands over the past week or so.  Eric Ayotte is also coming through on Monday, which will be great!
- So. Tired.
+ Almost done with this semester.  I like all my classes and my 8th graders, but it'll be nice to have a break.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: bee on November 05, 2014, 09:34:21 PM
+ had a cute date yesterday where i introduced them to the wonders of mac and cheese nachos, then we had a lil smooch with my cat watching.
+/- a bit worried i'm having a manic episode, i am generally feeling great right now, like hyperactive great, but am jumping into a lot of stuff head on and having fleeting thoughts of needing to chill out but being unable to.
+ i kinda wanna kiss everyone. this may be related to the point above.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on November 06, 2014, 01:41:56 PM
+/- a bit worried i'm having a manic episode, i am generally feeling great right now, like hyperactive great, but am jumping into a lot of stuff head on and having fleeting thoughts of needing to chill out but being unable to.

I was thinking the same thing about myself yesterday. Two days ago I had 4 band practices, and yesterday I cleaned the whole house, drew something I'm very happy with, and had another band practice. I've been active and relatively spontaneous. I'm worried it's gonna switch on me and the depression/anxiety/overwhelmed feeling that happens when you take on too much is gonna sneak up on my quickly.

Hopefully we're just feeling great though!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on November 06, 2014, 06:24:31 PM
- drunk
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Post by: AaronTheCabe on November 09, 2014, 05:05:29 PM
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Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: momitsnowme on November 10, 2014, 10:32:12 PM
+I went to a workshop on using an integration of mindfulness and CBT to treat ocd and anxiety and I feel really optimistic about it having a positive impact for me
-I don't get enough sleep and haven't for over a year
+feeling good in general
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kw on November 12, 2014, 02:05:19 PM
- fuck fuckFUCK my car just died, ontop of the wave of negative happenings this is just so un-needed. i know my car is old, i bought it with hard earned money when i was 15 and have had it for 11 years now, but i just needed it to get me through the winter... now, even if it is fixable, i won't have the money to fix it, nor is it valuable enough to fix in monetary terms. bad things always happen in piles, and i always forget that, or maybe just try to will it not to. fuck.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: momitsnowme on November 12, 2014, 09:36:08 PM
Sorry Kdub :(

+Skyped with kW today
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Post by: lindsey on November 13, 2014, 09:34:14 AM
becca how do you find workshops like that? sounds really interesting
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on November 13, 2014, 10:53:52 AM
- snow.
+ Hey at least it's mid November, a perfectly acceptable time for the show to begin falling.
+ Trying to book a spring tour is exciting. I'm very pleased with how my band is sounding these days, and the three of us get along great. The idea of taking this stuff out for two weeks is super awesome to me.
+ Two of my housemates I've lived with for 3.5 years are moving out, which is a little sad, but it means one of my best pals gets to move in, and one of my current housemates gets to shift to a larger room, which is another forward for his mental health. Also my partner moves back in a month! Positive changes!
- Currently there's no cats in the house, and it's just devistatingly sad.
+ All I do is work and play music but I actually kind of like it that way.
- My drinking was getting out of hand so I'm stopping for a couple of weeks. Since my partner left, it's been hard to set a limit for the night and stick to it, I always go too far once I begin. It's upsetting to see those patterns emerge, and I have to work to keep myself in check. But these few days without drinking have been good and productive, so at least there's some reward.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: momitsnowme on November 13, 2014, 01:19:14 PM
becca how do you find workshops like that? sounds really interesting

i had just been checking out the website for the center that put it on because they offer telephone counseling that i was considering. they had a contest to win a scholarship to the workshop so i entered it and won!
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Post by: michaelcopeland on November 15, 2014, 01:21:23 AM
Never mind
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Post by: michaelcopeland on November 15, 2014, 01:50:41 AM
:)
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Post by: Phitney on November 18, 2014, 07:13:15 PM
- My boss sent me a weird questionnaire to be sent to HR. It's supposedly confidential, but I have to send it to my boss to send to HR. Something seems really fishy about it
- I gotta get out of this company
- I'm realizing more and more and more that I should not have left California. I miss it too much. I want to move back, but I know I can't just move back and continue working for my company at their headquarters there. That was one of the reasons why I moved away. Working in that office was so bad for my mental health. It's still not great for my mental health,  but it's slightly better since I work from home and am somewhat distanced from it all.
+/- I've recently started talking to a guy on okcupid who lives near where I used to live in California. He's super awesome and we talked for several hours on the phone last night. I would try and date the shit out of him if I lived there. I'm trying to not make this a reason to move back, especially considering my track record with dating lately where I get super stoked on a person and then my feelings for them fizzle out very quickly after meeting them. I have to move for myself and no one else. The - is because I worry that I'm making this a reason to move back, though I was contemplating going back ever since I visited my friends there a few weeks ago.
+ Doing lots of derby stuff. I've been populating my weekends with these big scrimmage events that I can skate ref at. I'm channeling so much energy into this and it feels so awesome.
+ I think I'm going to stop drinking as well, or at least cut back by a lot. I haven't drank much lately, but I did drink more than I meant last weekend on a date and it really threw my off for the rest of the weekend. I'm finding that drinking isn't quite as fun anymore and it's usually just something I do when I'm nervous and then I feel like shit the next day.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: michaelcopeland on November 18, 2014, 09:44:46 PM
+ This is probably my favorite thread :) not only because I can vent about stuff with people who actually listen, but I get to learn a little more about all of you and I get to be the listener. For some reason I find that very refreshing!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: michaelcopeland on November 18, 2014, 09:47:21 PM
Also congrats for trying to cut back on drinking! I'm not one of those people who is totally against it, but it's always nice to keep yourself in check and under control :p
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on November 19, 2014, 09:44:57 AM
+ I think I'm going to stop drinking as well, or at least cut back by a lot. I haven't drank much lately, but I did drink more than I meant last weekend on a date and it really threw my off for the rest of the weekend. I'm finding that drinking isn't quite as fun anymore and it's usually just something I do when I'm nervous and then I feel like shit the next day.
This is exactly how I feel on this, too. My goal to stop completely for a couple of weeks floundered a bit, but I still haven't had more than one drink in a day, and that seems to be the reasonable moderation I strive for, generally. My drinking was making me act out in a totally goofy way for a 25 year old to. Nothing particularly harmful.  the day before halloween I drew on a bunch of stuff in my neighborhood with lipstick, later I took a tiny chair out of a neighbor's abandoned yard, then sometime shortly after that I stole a traffic barrel and put it in my housemate's room. Just petty theft/vandalism of a 15 year old.

The traffic barrel was pretty funny, though.
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Post by: AaronTheCabe on November 19, 2014, 05:55:59 PM
-sad aaron is sad
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Post by: Courtney on November 19, 2014, 06:08:17 PM
+No more boyfriend! He was a nice enough guy, just not for me.
+Having my apartment to myself is the best.
+Going to see Saves The Day Friday in Orlando with my best friends from high school.
+Seeing Doug Benson in Tampa the next night.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kw on November 19, 2014, 08:22:19 PM
+ was offered an amazing job at one of my favourite vegan spots in canada
-/+ it is located in st. catharines, about an hour and a half outside of toronto, in the niagra falls region.
+ moving there means i'd get to live in a huge house with my partner and another rad person, and i'd be paying $900 less a month than i am making now
- i do actually love living in toronto, and would miss it a lot. st catharines is rad, but it doesn't compare to this city.

-/+ now that i have basically made up my mind to move, and have been looking work for almost a month, i have been offered two jobs today... the day i made up my mind. UGH
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Phitney on November 19, 2014, 08:40:09 PM
+No more boyfriend! He was a nice enough guy, just not for me. .

Was this the guy I met? I'm glad that it's a + and not a -! Being sad about break up stuff is...well...sad.

In other news, we need to hang out again!

-sad aaron is sad

Aaron! Call me when you're sad. I'll tell you dumb jokes that hopefully make you less sad!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Courtney on November 20, 2014, 04:49:30 PM
+No more boyfriend! He was a nice enough guy, just not for me. .

Was this the guy I met? I'm glad that it's a + and not a -! Being sad about break up stuff is...well...sad.

In other news, we need to hang out again!
Yes, that was him! Nice dude, but nah. And yes, we do need to hang out again! I'm leaving to Florida for a week tomorrow, but I'll holler at you on facebook when I'm back.
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Post by: michaelcopeland on November 23, 2014, 06:25:32 PM
+ moving to Bentonville, Arkansas on the 2nd. It'll be a good opportunity to start over and get my life back in order. p.s. If anyone lives near there, lets become friends :)

- I'm leaving a lot of really good people behind and people never stay in touch like they plan to

+ I'm playing one last house show on the 28th with some super cool people
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Drewcifer on November 24, 2014, 01:40:57 PM
+ I rejoined the PIX board since it crashed

- I hate my job.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Anna Karina on November 27, 2014, 12:21:06 AM
- It appears I've had a falling out with my best friend and I have no idea on possible reasons why.


edit:
+ It appears that is not the case.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Phitney on November 27, 2014, 07:21:11 PM
- Family arguments about the goings on in Ferguson. Argh
+/- Told my family I was moving back to California and my grandma about shit a brick. I've set a move date for March 28th, so I  would leave Virginia four days before that to drive. If I don't have a different job by then, I'll just transition back to working in the office at my current job and job hunt on the side. It might be easier to find a job if I'm already there.
+ Applying for jobs, feeling super productive
+ Aaron and I are gonna hang out in Atlanta on Saturday and he's gonna come to the roller derby scrimmage-a-thon that I'm reffing and we're gonna eat the best food at some yet-to-be-determined place!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kw on November 28, 2014, 11:53:52 AM
+ officially moving, and after setting the date as the 15th, its been moved up to this upcoming thursday. really excited, a bit nervous, but mostly stoked. hoping i will continue to feel reinvigorated and do positive things for my brain and body. that is what is most important right now.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: bee on November 29, 2014, 09:00:32 PM
- i keep finding saturdays hard as it's the only day i spend most of my shift at work alone and i get way too introspective and usually end up coming home and crying. today was no different.
+ however, my roommate made me dinner and a cutie brought me my favourite donut from their workplace
- someone owes me money and has been avoiding giving it to me for a few weeks now. i'd be less stressed if it was a friend but it's a business thing and today it has really made me anxious
+ made further plans for my trip to california in feb
+/- for most of my time in california i'll be staying with someone who i briefly lived in the same city as a few years ago. we sorta used to be sweet on each other and then lost contact for maybe 4 years? we recently got back in touch kind of sporadically, but in the last week or two it has progressed to talking most days (texting and phone) which we have both agreed that we are enjoying, and have also basically said we are into each other again despite not having seen each other in real life in quite some time. but yesterday they kind of made a few things into a bigger deal than i feel they are at this time and it's made me a bit uncomfortable, and i have not heard from them since and feel like i have left the ball in their court, so on one hand i'm stoked and on the other i'm a little wary. i think all i want really is a nice cuddle.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on November 30, 2014, 04:57:02 PM
+been feeling a bit better recently, thanks to dakota and whitney, hangin' with whitney is the first time i've gotten out of the house in a long time
+drove thru the city to meet her, the first time ever since my former panic attacks in driving had always made me use the train but MARTA is just the worst and hardly goes throughout the city of atlanta. it needs to be twice as big with smaller rails connecting the outer perimeter and metro areas to it as well. i could go on and on about my love of public transportation but we all know you wouldn't read it
+thinking about going back to pure vegetarian or pescetarian, forgot how much i love vegan/vegetarian food and i have the $ to afford it now.
+might be playing a show a week from tomorrow if Dakota can't find any other bands to help support a touring band at a house show he's booked
+My boss thinks that i will soon have the knowledge and ability to basically run any uhaul store soon and i may have the chance to move out of GA within a year. Considering California, where Whitney might have a room available, Portland, Ore. because why not!, and maybe even Phoenix Arizona if i try for a corporate Uhaul position. Working at Uhaul has been the first big company that ever acknowledged my hard work, promoted me for it, and is specifically interested in my future plans/ideas
+/- don't know what all this means for those five remaining college classes. Man i chose a shit time in my life to get on meth, glad i'm off and seeing the future
+ still off meth! mayhap always off meth!
-meth recovery has met me some challenges and i still remain suicidal a large portion of my waking (and even dream) time. low sex drive and other physcial abnormalities will hopefully remedy soon
+/- still not sure if my life is just beginning or if my life is over and i'm just trying to make a couple of dreams come true before i jump off a bridge. its a very dichotomous time of my life right now
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Anna Karina on December 01, 2014, 12:57:11 AM
- I am incredibly fucking lonely and have been for years
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kw on December 04, 2014, 06:48:55 PM
+ i am sitting at my desk in my new room on the third floor of a lovely house in st. catharines, ontario. my feline companions are so happy to have a plethora of windows to look out, the two roommates who aren't my partner seem so happy to have me here and were so helpful when i was moving in, and my partner has been just tremendous throughout this whole move. communicative, helpful, understanding when i get anxious and stressed out. i am really happy i made this move, and think it will be the prelude to a really exciting and positive 2015. at least i hope!

+ going back to toronto next week for 4 days to see the hold steady play a 4-night residency at a legendary venue in town. couldn't be more excited.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on December 07, 2014, 04:23:27 PM
+/- SAD SAD SAD, happy happy happy, hypomanic hypomanic hypomanic, suicide and carpe diem, giving gifts, being forgotten, loving music, hating that no one likes my own, et cetera et cetera et cetera
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on December 08, 2014, 05:14:14 PM
EDIT:

 my apologies, i did not mean to worry anyone. I have been hypomanic (or manic i can't tell the difference) for the last three which included such wonderful ideas as walking on broken glass to show [to myself] i have no fear, believing i am a better poet than TS Eliot, and the thing thats always therew hen i get manic, a messiahnic complex this time in the form of a great book to sassve/change the world and then die for the cause. In the past its manifested where i thought i would be enlightened like buddha or jesus (by the age of 23) and i once went a whole week thinking i was our world's Kwizhach Hederach  from the novel dune (a book ironically about the messiah complex as it is about other things) and the holidays are especially bad for me with my birthday (saddest day) and thanksgiving and christmas (i successfully committed suicide christmas eve 2007, just survived the ordeal)

I will take a break for awhile after writing stupid shit like this. but if anyone does want a surprise coffee-tea-beer-soda just pm address or write in that post. thanks and sorry again
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on December 08, 2014, 05:19:57 PM
+ My partner, after being away to gradschool for the last few months, is moving back in. She hates her program so she's leaving and coming back here to figure things out!
- I feel like the last 3 months I worked hard to attempt to reach out to new people, and that all of those attempts might be stunted from here on out.
+ But I am excited about the new era of my household, and I think it's going to be a good/productive one.
- One of my co-workers got punched in the face while at work. She's fine, but it makes me very frustrated and saddened. It also makes me more wary to confront people at work about anything at all.
- I don't know how to help some of my friends in some hard times, and it's breaking my heart.
+ recording and booking a tour!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: momitsnowme on December 08, 2014, 07:12:20 PM
Aaron, I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. You're right that there are people here who care and I know it is more than 3 or 4. I am begging you to get some professional help. We will support you in any way we can. We want you around here.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: BlakeK on December 08, 2014, 07:16:17 PM
Aaron, if you see this, please message me, Becca, or anyone else you'd feel comfortable talking to. If you don't want to talk to us, please call 911. Here is a number for the national mental health crisis hotline 1-800-273-8255. Please call or contact one of us immediately so that we know you are okay. You  have people here who are very worried about you and who care about you.

If you don't want to talk to anyone over the phone you can chat instead of talk at http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: momitsnowme on December 08, 2014, 07:37:55 PM
09 The Vandals - Come Out Fighting:
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Rapture Ready Blowhard on December 09, 2014, 05:11:00 AM
Aaron, I just wanted to reiterate what Becca and Blake have said.  Please feel free to email me any time, and don't be afraid to seek out professional help.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: BlakeK on December 10, 2014, 07:08:41 AM
I'm glad you posted, Aaron. Becca and I were very worried about you. I'm sure others were as well as RRB (sorry I don't know your real name) also posted concerns. You definitely need help and that isn't a criticism or anything to be ashamed of. I think that most people on here including myself have sought professional help for psychological problems. It sounds like you're bipolar and need medication ASAP as you are at high risk for relapse given your untreated mental illness.

We really do care so please feel free to PM, call, or email one of us if you need someone to talk to or if you need help getting started addressing your mental health issues.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Phitney on December 10, 2014, 07:38:15 AM
Aaron, I don't know what was in your post before you edited, but please feel free to reach out to me anytime. You have my number, e-mail, and facebook, so never ever hesitate to contact me. I want you to be okay <3
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: momitsnowme on December 10, 2014, 10:59:29 AM
You don't need to apologize, aaron. We all care about you and were worried. I'm so glad you feel like you can talk to us about all of this and I hope you remember that next time you're having a hard time. And like Blake said, lots of us are always here to talk and have been through mental health issues.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: bee on December 10, 2014, 05:29:41 PM
+ seemingly on pretty good terms with a person i came out of a pretty important relationship with a couple of months ago. we both agreed we wanted to stay in each other's lives and fingers crossed that seems to be working for us right now.
+ had a date with a cute human who i was worried i wouldn't have much in common with (dating outside of punx = scary) but it was really good and we are hanging out tonight and they want to kiss me and i want to kiss them so it's a cool situation
+ an old friend is coming from far away to stay for a couple of weeks over christmas and new year which should be nice.
+ generally feeling quite positive about myself and my life right now?
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: dakotafloyd on December 10, 2014, 10:11:53 PM
Aaron, if you need to get away from your house for a bit, you're more than welcome to come hang out with me.  You don't live too far down the road, and I'm finished with school for the semester.  I've still got work and stuff going on, but don't hesitate to shoot me a text or FB message or give me a call.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: michaelcopeland on December 10, 2014, 10:40:35 PM
- Arkansas is lame and this whole move is starting to feel like a mistake. It isn't turning out like it was supposed to at all
- Songwriting has slowed to a halt and I'm afraid I will never write anything again
+ I think that a lot and I always find inspiration again
+ I feel this giant existential crisis coming to an end
+/- I'm kind of starting to feel apathetic about everything
- lately I've been distancing myself from everyone, some reason I've been having trouble working up the nerve to talk to people
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on December 11, 2014, 04:30:31 PM
I would just like to say the compassion and overwhelming response is the nicest thing anybody, person, or group or anything has ever done for me and that it says a lot about this community and the integrity and love that is shared. thankee sai to all you. there really aren't words to express the feels

::HUGS:: all round

Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: momitsnowme on December 11, 2014, 10:45:37 PM
<3
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on January 06, 2015, 09:53:16 AM
+ One of my bands released a split 7" with a band I really like, and I got to design the cover for our side! It looks pretty cool seeing it up on an actual site
http://alreadydeadtapes.storenvy.com/products/11523993-regular-fucked-up-people-boring-people-split-7-ad157
+ My partner is back, and one of my best friends has also moved into my house, so things have been pretty stellar
+ Setting up a tour for one of my other bands has been going pretty smoothly
+ I'm trying to work out regularly and drink less and also read more, and so far so good.
- I'm kind of worried that all the effort I did to make new friends while my partner was gone will be for nothing unless I put in the effort to keep contact. I don't want to just forget new people in my life now that things are more stable, because some new folks were really cool / I felt a good connection with.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: bee on January 19, 2015, 10:04:10 AM
+ going to california in a couple of weeks. it'll be weird and awesome to stay with an old friend who i haven't seen in years, and to escape the cold of toronto
+/- rushing myself trying to complete some zines in time for the LA zine fest. i should have been more organised but i never am
+ started a second job recently which means more $$$
- had some medication difficulties the past few days but hopefully that's resolving itself
+ getting a clearer idea of what i need to change in my life in terms of responsibilities and also people. it feels positive doing this, especially as this is usually a hard/weird time of year for me. last year i didn't cope well around this time but this year i'm determined to keep a clear head and do what i need
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: dakotafloyd on January 20, 2015, 09:31:39 PM
- Car died and is now en route to a junk yard.  No money for a new vehicle right now, but I absolutely need one for my current work / school situation.
- Feeling listless about lots of things.  School.  Work.  Writing.  Shows.  Generally spending time with people.
+ Made some Japanese-inspired soup from scratch this evening that was decently tasty.
+ Tried a handful of new sodas this week, including a Russian tarragon soda.
+ My band's 7"s that we ordered 11 months ago finally came in last night.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: bee on January 20, 2015, 11:44:42 PM
+++++ impulse moving house. moving into a shared live/work loft apartment where i can set up my own studio space. it seems ridiculously awesome and i can't believe i have found something so cool yet affordable.
- i move by 1st feb and have a lot to sort out in that time.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on March 06, 2015, 07:12:36 PM
---gona go drug hunting tomorrow methinks. methinks should taske over i thinks. its a better phrase
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Anna Karina on March 06, 2015, 10:11:52 PM
+ last month I got promoted to a new position
- somehow I'm still broke even though I make (slightly) more money
- I could be jobless anytime between the end of this month and May, after leaving a job that was steady
+ I don't know how I have as awesome of friends as I do, but man, I love my friends
- I'm a terrible friend and person
- I shouldn't be so depressed at this point in my life, holy shit I'm almost 30 jesus christ what happened to my life
+I have the vague notion that I will understand why I was put on this earth within the next few years
- I will probably fail miserably once I figure out why that is



After listening to an old Harris Wittels guest podcast regarding the issue, I strongly urge you not to go drug hunting!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: CrackyMcCrackerson on March 07, 2015, 05:36:41 AM
+ Moving with my gf into a new apartment less than 3 weeks
- So much left to do(like packing) and so much money I have to spend(movers, carpet cleaning in old & junk removal in old place because I'm lazy) until then

+ They let us come into the office on Saturday to make up for apocalyptic ice conditions on Thursday that prevented me from getting to work
- I have to work Saturday instead of letting us use PTO

+ Woke up early enough(4:45am) to get a little action from the lady before I left for work
- Woke up at 4:45am

 
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: ramblinrabble on March 07, 2015, 05:42:29 AM
---gona go drug hunting tomorrow methinks. methinks should taske over i thinks. its a better phrase
Don't do that.


+ Got a new job.  Better pay, less stress, more professional, less stupid.
- Training is killing me.  The entire month of March I'm bouncing between Buffalo and Rochester for a week at a time for different training classes.
+ They put me up in a nice hotel for free though
- Kinda broke.  Not sure when I'll get reimbursed for gas. food, etc.
- I haven't gotten a full night of sleep in three days.  Keep waking up every half hour, then not getting back to sleep for another half hour, and then repeat.
- Not going to be able to catch the Rangers while they're in town because of crazy work schedule/being broke.


---gona go drug hunting tomorrow methinks. methinks should taske over i thinks. its a better phrase

I mean it, seriously, Aaron, dont do it.  Reach out if you need to.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on March 07, 2015, 10:19:26 AM
ya i ain't doin all that. just been feverish. forgot to take my antidepressants for like 4 or 5 days cause been sleeping whenever not at work. had three beers last night and the other three from same six pack night before last. had a staggering depresssing affect on me, my excuse to drink was alcohol is an antitussive and this cough is sooooo baaaaaaad
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Phitney on March 09, 2015, 09:21:10 PM
Aaron! Any time you start to feel sad or lonely or like you want drugs or even if you're happy and want to talk to to someone, don't be afraid to reach out! You have my number!

+ Got accepted into the second of three roller derby tournaments I applied to officiate at! The first one I got accepted into is on the west coast, so I can't go. But this one I can go to! I'm still hoping I'll get into the third I applied for
- I keep almost making an appointment with a therapist and then I convince myself that things won't be so awful when x, y, and z happen when in reality I've been in this slump for a while.
- Almost rage-quit my job last week. It's so tempting to quit. I have monies in my bank account that I can use to live while finding a job, but I was going to use that money to move. I'm not feeling too up to living in this area for much longer.
- Dating is frustrating as HELL. Every time I start dating again I realize why I quit dating.
+/- Thinking about moving back to Asheville. It's closer to my family. I have solid friends there. Also, mountains. It just sucks because the job market is not so great.
+/- I'm going to be staying on the east coast for a while due to family health problems and my dad starting to line up lots of surgeries. I need to be with them.
+ I'm glad my dad is finally getting the surgeries he needs. He needs a new hip and new knees. Seeing him in so much pain and being forced into inactivity because of the pain makes me so sad. He's so stubborn and hates doctors so much that I worried he was never going to fix those problems. So so so glad he's come around. Last time I talked to him I told him I wished I could buy him new knees so he could go hiking again.
+ Going to DC this weekend with one of my ref friends. We're going to have a girly road trip, see awesome museums, and ref a fun scrimmage-a-thon with the league up there with some of my other favorite refs!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: dakotafloyd on March 09, 2015, 09:39:29 PM

- I keep almost making an appointment with a therapist and then I convince myself that things won't be so awful when x, y, and z happen when in reality I've been in this slump for a while.

I had that same thought process for years.  Finally started talking with a counselor a few weeks ago, and it's been going really well.  I know it's weird and scary to go into that stuff, but if you've been seriously considering going, you might as well at least try it.  Even if things will be better when x, y, and z happen, what about the interim?

Just some thoughts.  I think you've got my number, feel free to text or call if you wanna chat about that stuff.

Also Aaron, call or text whenever.  See ya on the 26th!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: lindsey on March 09, 2015, 10:21:21 PM
whit, would it be your first time going to therapy?

if not, you probs know your limit or how it would benefit. but if it IS your first time, i say 100% do it. therapy is the shit if you can afford it (and find a good therapist).

++++ had my first weekend of tattoo school! 16 hrs down, 584 to go....
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Phitney on March 10, 2015, 09:09:49 AM
It would be my first time going, so maybe that's why it seems so scary and daunting. Thank you both for your words of encouragement. I found a place nearby that seems alright, so I'm just going to take the plunge and make an appointment. I don't really see anything that could go wrong with it. I just need to do it!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on March 10, 2015, 09:40:04 AM
- After some pretty obnoxious piss-poor decisions at my job, my manager quit, as well as half of the bakery staff (the important, super skilled/managerial half)
-/+ I've been spending all week trying to sort things out so that half of the coffee shop doesn't also quit
-/+ because of my initiative, it's looking like I'm going to be one of two new managers! More money, but also tons and tons more stress
- I am now going to have to listen to the guy who is the reason all the major players just quit outright. He's an awful awful men's rights activist, but I'm pretty sure we're going to make it work, without him impacting the comfort of all of the employees.
-/+ Tour is getting BOOKED! and I still get to go in spite of all the stress at my work. But there's still so much to do and it's less than a month away.
+ I'm getting out of a slump of a depression. I am CLAWING my way out of it and it feels good.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on March 12, 2015, 01:09:02 PM
+/-I am werewolf
Changes are in the mirror
A sane man in a madhouse sits in the bookshelf unopened
Words written past tense, all known
A thousand hands decapitated
Words written, unknown. Ken?
Why does the preacher have fear in his eyes…
I write tongues
I write tongues
I refuse to do so in threes.
-3/12/15

Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on March 18, 2015, 11:27:50 AM
-----fuck uhaul. they can keep their 40K/year, which really ain't a lot in retrospect, cause it ain't worth wanting to shoot myself or slit my wrist for.

+/- i'm getting a student loan and finishing my 5 remaining Georgia State classes, three fucking electives and two spanish classes.

then i'm looking to move to asheville too, it's been my goal to move their for 4 years now. GSU is notorious for having undergrad creative writing classes of Grad. student quality, i might see if possible to teach creative writing at a community college or something, if possible without grad degree. or maybe even go to grad school, teaching at the school basic english classes or such.

the more i go on the more i see that thinking i can talk to non academic people about things i'm interested in just isn't viable. and that philosophy is so contrary to what i wanted for myself and others but goddamn life is shit and so are half the people around
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: bee on March 23, 2015, 08:11:51 PM
+/- is literally how everything is right now. some really great things are happening in my life but i am also working to make some big changes. i'm at a very complicated crossroads.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Joe on March 29, 2015, 06:16:08 PM
-I fucked up at my job recently.  It was one of those situations where I knew just enough to be dangerous, and I should have been more thorough with my planning, or I should have been respectfully less ambitious with my execution. It was honestly still seems like a simple mistake, but it freaked out a client and he sent some really spiteful e-mail to way too many people for me not to feel pretty embarrassed.

+up until that moment I was getting all kinds of compliments for how well I have been handling all the stuff that has been thrown at me.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: AaronTheCabe on April 21, 2015, 06:10:41 PM
- the sun shines but i don't, the silver rain will wash away, the rain. and you can tell, it's just as well
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on April 24, 2015, 04:01:55 PM
-/+ I quit my job of the last 4.5 years!
- I cried at my two weeks notice meeting
- that place is kind of screwed without me
+ It's good to make a decision based on my emotional well being, as well as my intellectual and moral understanding
+ Not going to support a shitty little dude and his quest to make other people's lives worse as managerial practice
+ I already have another job lined up working right next door at a local record shop for my friends

I went on tour just as my job was going through a pretty big management shift and the conclusion that came from that is I should do what makes me happy, and that I am way more capable than I am being treated.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: jer on April 24, 2015, 06:20:31 PM
+ Got a promotion/raise
+ Lost some excess weight I've put on
+ Ducks advancing to 2nd round of playoffs
+ Published an article on Yahoo! Sports.

Huzzah!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kw on April 29, 2015, 11:53:48 AM
+ since moving, my mental health has generally stabilized, i have gotten into much healthier habits, and feel completely supported no matter what is going on in life. i am really happy to report that, in general, all is well and it seems like it will stay that way for the forseeable future.

+ going on tour next week for the first time in a few years, stokedd
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: dakotafloyd on April 29, 2015, 07:44:09 PM
+ Finished my semester today!  One to go!
+ I'm very good at winning things, and I won tickets for The Offspring tonight.
- Didn't find out until almost 11 PM, well after the show has finished.  Don't care so much about the band, just wanted to go to a big show to get out of the house.
+ Got a great setup done on my guitar for cheap.
+ Met with someone about finally recording my ever-elusive solo record in the next couple months.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on July 03, 2015, 12:21:55 AM
+ new job is great
- I make more than half as much as I used to and the boss doesn't want to give me more hours
- I'm having a difficult time with the anniversary of a friend's death, even though it's been 7 years and I am a decidedly different person
- All of my queer friends in town moved away or don't want to go to shows anymore
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Joe on July 23, 2015, 09:39:39 AM
-boss wants me to only take one class instead of two because he is concerned that it is interfering with my work.
-I am paid 20% fewer dollars than anyone else on my team and I produce more than any of them.

+I am still pretty awesome at life even if everyone around me is stupid.
+I just got back from Seattle and it was really fun.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on August 25, 2015, 04:10:13 PM
+ I will be starting testosterone HRT Sept. 1st (still they/them pronouns plz)
- I have not told most of my friends
+ I've always been better at writing things out on the internet to help cope with things becoming real. So hey, PIX board, tellin' you first.
-/+ I am scared but also not. I pester my partner every day about "will you still like me even if..." kinds of questions but I'm honestly not worried. It's more of a mental checklist for me to go through. The only thing that's scary is other people. Awkwardness. Family.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: momitsnowme on August 25, 2015, 10:16:12 PM
Rory!! How exciting! But I can see why it would also be terrifying. <3
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: lindsey on September 07, 2015, 07:40:49 AM
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+++++++ I'm a few weeks away from starting my practical section at school (when I get to actually tattoo people/do "procedures") which means after 6 months of studying and learning alllll about infection control, skin diseases, blood borne pathogens, etc. I FINALLY GET TO ACTUALLY TATTOO PEOPLE. Yesterday was my first go on "second skin" which is a latex practice skin that we use to..practice on. It's WAY HARDER to tattoo than actual skin, but it's a good time to get a feel for the machines, and practice proper needle depth. ANYWAY I'M BASICALLY A REAL TATTOO ARTIST ALMOST BASICALLY!!!!!!!


Rory, congrats! I hope your amazing news is met with nothing but support and love, as it should be.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: momitsnowme on September 07, 2015, 08:25:24 PM
Yay!!!!! Lindsey!!! So cool!!!!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: lindsey on September 08, 2015, 12:42:32 AM
Thank yooou!!! I seriously feel more passion for tattooing than I have ever felt for anything in my life. It's SO CHEESY but I feel like I've found my calling kind of, or at least the absolute most awesome and fun and exciting way to make art and money and have the chance to travel a lot, etc. Gary is letting me do my first tattoo on him, and it's going to be a matching version of my rocket ship tattoo on my forearm. So romaaaanntic! Ahhhh I can't wait!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: skateandannoy on September 14, 2015, 07:33:54 PM
Don't usually post in this thread but...

+Saw/ met Laci Green today and she was really awesome and nice and informative
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: ramblinrabble on September 15, 2015, 06:59:14 PM
+ Job interview tomorrow for a position back home in the city.
- Lots of driving within two days.  Just drove down, not getting to see anyone, two stacked interviews tomorrow at 9:30AM, immediately leaving and driving back to Rochester to work a ten hour shift tomorrow.  A little stressed and nervous.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on September 16, 2015, 12:43:01 PM
+ taking testosterone every day has made me more conscious of having a body (go figure) in a positive way. I'm eating well and surprisingly losing weight.
+ I have not really had to talk to anyone about gender stuff and new ways to address me. I'm just putting all this off until it seems more pertinent.
+ My general stasis is happier, and it's way less difficult to become motivated to do things.
+ My house just had it's 100th show, and in spite of all the stress I'm really proud of what we've done!
- One of my housemates moved out and I'm not really sure who is ever going to want this extremely tiny room in our house. Anyone here want to spend a measly 172 dollars a month and live in Kalamazoo?
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: kt on September 16, 2015, 02:46:50 PM
+ i have a job that is a mediocre but ultimately not bad job
+ i have a partner that is rly far away but so fucking good to me
+ i'm in a new band called femmeroids with my best friends and it is so important to me and i feel so lucky
+ portlnd is such a strange place but its growing on me
+ im gonna be an extra on portlandia! and theyre gonna pay me!
- money and gender seem to be a forever struggle 4 me
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: Phitney on September 16, 2015, 06:58:29 PM
+/- I got laid off from my shitty job working for a crappy sketchy company a few weeks ago. - because not having an income is tough, unemployment benefits are taking a long time to kick in, the company is dragging its feet on providing me with my last paystubs and a lay off letter so I can prove to social services/unemployment office that I was making money but now am not. + because I'm way less stressed out than I was when I was working for them
+ Started tutoring a high schooler in Algebra I today. Yay little bit of money!
+ I'm going to be the head referee of a roller derby double header this weekend. I'm mostly excited but also nervous.
+ It's cooling down and it's almost FALL!!!!! Yay cooler weather, crisp air, and pretty leaves everywheres
- Pumpkin has crystals in his urine and has been sick and peeing on the carpet. I had to put him on this special food to dissolve the crystals. He isn't super into the food, but my roommate's kitten LOVES it. So I have to keep the kitten away from his food and somehow make him eat it and drink more water. Getting a cat to drink more water is damn near impossible.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: bee on October 16, 2015, 08:48:26 AM
+ gonna hang with a cool human tonight and play katamari and watch scary movies
+ going to a zine fest tomorrow to listen to a talk on the occult, and then probably underwear shopping
+ taking a long weekend out next week to go hang in grand rapids, michigan, which i am pretty stoked for
- eternally uncomfortable in certain scenes here
+ but generally things are okay and a vast improvement on my first year in toronto (which honestly was one of the worst)
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: bee on October 16, 2015, 08:52:51 AM
- Pumpkin has crystals in his urine and has been sick and peeing on the carpet. I had to put him on this special food to dissolve the crystals. He isn't super into the food, but my roommate's kitten LOVES it. So I have to keep the kitten away from his food and somehow make him eat it and drink more water. Getting a cat to drink more water is damn near impossible.

my cat pickle had this and had to go to the vets to get them taken out. not the cheapest but i was super worried at the time as i'd only had him a short while then. occasionally these days i give him cranberry tablets crushed on his food, which he doesn't seem to mind too much, just to keep things healthy down there. i hope your kitty is better!
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: rory on November 26, 2015, 10:28:39 AM
+ I went on a two week tour with my band and band of friends and it was incredible
+/- Tour made me realize that I have to re-evaluate my friendships and relationships, and although I think it's good, I'm not really sure what that means entirely yet
+ Almost 3 months on Testosterone! I have the smallest trash stash and I feel really good about myself.
- My family still does not know about me transitioning, but it's kind of coming down to the point where I'll have to say something
- Working 40 hours a week at minimum wage, even though I like my job, is not my favorite thing in the world
+ My kitten is almost 3 months old and she is a perfect adorable little hellion and I love her so much.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: jer on March 25, 2016, 09:04:39 AM
+ Got to hang out with Sami for a few days
- No more Sami.
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: skateandannoy on March 25, 2016, 01:11:59 PM
-Sami doesn't post enough
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: pronetoaccidents on March 31, 2016, 10:24:21 AM
+ living with someone in a weird new town and it's kind of an adventure at the moment
- nothing lasts
Title: Re: +/- Thread
Post by: pronetoaccidents on April 06, 2016, 07:45:58 AM
- I had to give away my bunny who I love more than any other human because I'm doing horrible now.. slipping into weird drugs I never cared for and other not good things. I gave her away because I didn't trust myself since I can't even take care of myself